I'm It!

i've been tagged again. so, now i'm going to do it. but for those who tagged me with the desktop meme, i'm really sorry. i don't want to do it. hahaha.

for the first meme. i've been tagged by Lazarus

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? my sister. or maybe it's my mom coz we were talking about her. hehehe
2. What were you doing at 0800? sleeping
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? uploading mark10 pictures
4. What happened to you in 2006? I gained weight. --> that's my answer too! hahaha
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? actually, i sang. Sway by Michael Buble
6. How many beverages did you have today? just one. milk
7. What color is your hairbrush? Combs also. yellow and pink
8. What was the last thing you paid for? stuff i bought last night
9. Where were you last night? shopping for necessities. hehe
10. What color is your front door? brown?
11. Where do you keep your change? wallet, bag
12. What’s the weather like today? Cloudy?
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? rocky road ice cream
14. What excites you? Sports, travel
15. Do you want to cut your hair? next year.
16. Are you over the age of 25? turning 27 :)
17. Do you talk a lot? sometimes. hehehe. but most of the time i just listen. promise!
18. Do you watch the O.C.? before. now, when i just see ryan. hehe
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? also Mr. Spielberg. but i know a Steve
20. Do you make up your own words? refer to my Wordsy Words post
21. Are you a jealous person? i guess? hahaha
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’. Ace
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’. Kate
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list? kisses
25. What does the last text message you received say? a forwarded messagew about love
26. Do you chew on your straw? No
27. Do you have curly hair? just wavy
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to? later church. tomorrow office. next week.. province!
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life? my lips are sealed
30. What was the last thing you ate? milk. hehehe. my dinner last night
31. Will you get married in the future? YES! hahaha. all caps talaga
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks? i don't know if the last movie i saw was in the past 2 weeks. it was Chuck and Larry with Cher and Joyce. so girls, was that in the last 2 weeks? but i like that movie. laugh trip
33. Is there anyone you like right now? i like everyone. plastic! hahaha
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? can't recall. hehehehe
35. Are you currently depressed? Nope
36. Did you cry today? Nope
37. Why did you answer and post this? coz i think i need to answer tags. hehe.
38. 5 people you tag next? those who love to answer surveys.. like thinz, maan a., kat r.

and now the second one. from Wil. this is due for the longest time already.
the rule is to use your middle name, and for each letter write a specific trait or characteristic that you have. and then to tag the same number of people as you have in your middle name.

i am going to use my last name. coz in the future it will be my middle name. bwahahaha!

Real. i think i'm real. no hypocrisy. slight lang. hahaha

Articulate. that was how boss poly would always describe me. first time he told me that was during my interview. and i was like.. what? me? articulate? are you sure? then later on he would again describe me as articulate.. maarteng makulet. weh!

Cynosure. meaning center of attraction. it's a spelling word in my gradeschool days. and i think that's the only spelling word i can remember, and i just want to include it in my list. hehe

Healthy. you'll say it's obvious with my body. hehehe. but seriously, i don't get sick that often. i think the last time i was absent from work because i was really sick was when francis gave me a kunchinta and i was in the cr for 24 hours. hmmm... that means, francis was mad at me already during that time pa. i wonder why he didn't include that in his email. hahaha

Older in ___ weeks. weeeh!!!! hahahaha :)


so now, i'm tagging some people... Jake, Ate Daisy, Roanne, Ate Ghee, and Tin you're it!

You Said I'd Never Go Alone

if you've noticed i don't post video clips on my blog, but this video really blessed me. when i saw this in zayin's page, i really cried. it really described how i'm feeling in cartoons. hehehe. and also the lyrics of the song. especially the part... "But You never said it would be easy. You only said I'd never go alone" coz when i feel down and i go to the Blessed Sacrament, i really feel God is there with me. that i am not alone. that He is just there beside Him, i just snob Him. then i'll just cry again. hahaha.

but as the song goes, whatever He wants i'll go through it coz i know it will bring me closer to Him and He has a great and wonderful plan for me. and as i said... He said that i would never go alone. and what i am experiencing is just small compared to what He went through just to show His love for me.

and now this song is a personal prayer of mine. again, big thanks to zayin. thanks zay! :)

now, there are two songs that makes me cry, this one and Arms of Love.
here's the video. a request, please watch it until the very end.

If You Want me To
Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason
why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I’m clinging to the promise
You’re not through with me yet
So if all these trials bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a
world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering
Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

Covered Travel

i love to travel. maybe it is because eversince i was a kid my family and i would always go to places. baguio every summer and would go home to our province every vacation time. and our province is in bohol so we would really travel. or just roadtrip to the nearby laguna or wherever. and after i resigned from my former job all i did was travel. i went exploring the visayas and mindano region. first time to go to mindanao. hehe.

but of course, in anything that we do there is a risk. just by stretching our arms. you could pull a nerve accidentally. hehehe. and when you travel, there is really a big risk especially if the place you are going to is a new place for you. that is why we need a travel insurance. so that we would not worry much when we explore places. but most insurance have an age limit, but good thing there is an travel insurance over 65. because it is not only us youngsters who loves to explore. and i think traveling could somehow help them have a healthy life, but just a little careful in what they eat and do. hehehe.

Fatal Lovelife

my childhood bestfriend got engaged last week! congrats danny and tina! my sister and i attended the engagement party. naks! oo nga noh! bday and engagement party in one. and when tish was showing me the video of tina accepting the proposal (coz we were late. hehe), my sister told me... "ate tin, si ljieu na lang.." meaning i just have only one bestfriend left who is not engaged nor married. i was supposed to contradict her when i realized she is right. rlyn is married, tina is engaged.. it's just ljieu. but ljieu has a boyfriend. and i think it's just a matter of time before they'll tie the knot. that means i'm the only one single.

tina and i were texting each other yesterday and she asked me.. "When will you get married?" my reply is: "Two years from now. that's why you should pressure yourself to find a husband for me. hehehe"

and the other week, my mom and i saw my cousin who is based in cebu. and my mom asked him to find me a bf. my cousin asked how old i am and i told him i'm only 26. and he said that i'm still young. coz he married at the age of 31. hehehe. and i said that i'm not pressuring myself. it's just my mom who is pressuring me. hehehe.

seriously, i'm not pressuring myself to look for a boyfriend or husband to be or whatever. it's like i'm still not prepared for that. no, it's not because i'm not over anyone yet. it's just a personal mission in life. labo? malabo talaga! hehehe. it's like i want to focus on my career first and if i'm okay with my career, then i'll focus on my lovelife.

and they said that.. either you'll have a great career or a great lovelife. it's one or the other and not the same. but for my case i have none. so maybe, it's not my career i should concentrate on. maybe it's my lovelife. siguro dapat kong kareerin ang lovelife. heheheeh.

just want to share something. a former officemate told me that he'll introduce me to a friend. i said okay and he asked if i want to see his picture so i said sure. and you know what he showed me? not just a picture. but a resumé! when i saw it. i was really laughing and laughing. he's right. at least now i would know already if we're compatible and if his work is okay for me. hahahaha.

i haven't met the guy and i didn't really read his resumé. but that is something new. hehehe

regarding my title: i just said out loud what could my title be. and an officemate asked what about and i said about lovelife. he just answered... Fatal Lovelife. so that's it! bwahahaha

Money Talks Again

I have been writing about money a couple of times already. I even mentioned in a post that sometimes money is what makes the world go round. Somehow this is true especially when you are in dire need of cash. Like for example tuition fee of your child, house mortgage, car loan and what most of us can relate to… credit card payment.

I admit, I am really cranky and really in a depressive mode when I do not have any money. It is worse than me having my PMS. Hehehe. Humility aside, and as my ex told me.. I am not used to having no money. And I do not want to get used to it. Hahahaha.

And most of the time there are emergencies that we need extra cash (like when we see a nice blouse in the mall, just kidding. Hehehe). But seriously, there are times when we do need extra cash and need to make cash advance. And sometimes the disadvantage with the credit cards is that the due date is right before payday and you receive the bill days after payday. So now when you do not have any money to pay for the card. It would be nice to have a payday loans, wherein you can pay every payday. This I believe happens only when you borrow money from a friend. Hehehe.

Blessed

the month of september had not been the greatest month for me. it's like i'm always down and worrying about a lot of things. i really made the wakeboarding plans pushed thru coz i needed it. i needed to relax. as i told my wakeboard buddies, i know that wakeboarding would really give me bodyaches and i needed that to drown all my spiritual, emotional and whatever pain i'm feeling. the week after the wakeboarding trip had really been painful. especiall with my bodyaches. every move i make is OUCH! OUCH! OUCH! and when my body is already healing, i got a spiritual/emotional blow. yup, even spiritual.. since i got really depressed, i was questioning God. and really felt that i'm a bad person and didn't deserve blessings.

funny coz a week before even if i'm feeling down the pits, i still felt blessed. even if there are problems, i know i am still blessed. then saturday came. and after the realizations, i really felt peace. promise! this week, whatever came my way, i felt calm. some people thought i was depressed coz of my text messages from the book of pareng Paulo but honestly, what the book said was what i was feeling last week (specifically friday). and i just wanted to share it even if it's delayed. hehehe.

and this week, i've realized that for a really proud person as i am, God is still blessing me. He is humbling me. yes, i am a very proud person. that is one of my favorite sin to commit.. pride. maybe because i love to eat pride chicken when i was a kid. yuck! corny! hehehe.

okay, back to my post. well, i'll just repeat and emphasize that i am a proud person. so when i have problems or i feel down or i need help, i don't try to show it. i always show that i'm strong. but God still gave me people who i don't know if they saw past my pride but they sure have been used by God to help me. but as i said before, God's message for me is to wait. i thought before that God sent me these people because He's granting me something already. but no! i think this is His way of giving me an opportunity to be patient. labo ba? honestly, malabo. hahaha. but i know that after these opportunities would be something far better for me. His perfect plan for me.

these are the people i want to thank. they have helped me in one aspect of my life. and i won't mention what. i'm proud, remember? hehehe.

Thanks to:
Jopay - for the instant text, ym and email messages. for always remembering me
Emcee - you're right. i am not asking anyone for help. and yet you still lent a helping hand. thanks for believing in me
Dino - i'm really glad we had that phone conversation when you asked that the out of town schedule be moved
Gani - namiss kita bigla ha. magsideline ka nga. kme clients mo.
Pie - kahit na tuliro utak mo that time, you still remembered me. and remembered to mention it to me.
Kate - this thank you should have been said a long time ago pa. hehehe
Maca - you always remember me
Son - thanks for always informing me and sending me emails
Ate Dada - i'm really thankful nakakasabay and nakakasalubong kita sa mrt. hehehehe
Tina Guzman - seeing you in the wedding shower slightly changed my life. naks! hahaha
Jay - actually, you're a blessing for other people, for my friends. but through me coz for my friends. but still even if it's for other people, not me.. you still are a blessing,
Mam Irene - the text message and phonecall that changed my life. with this list, most unexpected kayo. thank you so much for believing in me. though i left you and gay hanging before, you still had been nice to me. thank you!

i'm sure some of those in my list do not know what i'm thankful for. but for those who realize what it is for.. quiet na lang kayo. hehehe. thank you! :)

skiing

honestly, my ultimate dream for a water adventure besides scuba diving is to experience jetski. when i was still a kid, i would really want to ride a jetski. but the problem is it is expensive, for just a few minutes it would cost you much. that is why i was so happy to have experienced water skiing or wakeboarding. hehehe. coz it may not be a jetski, but i am getting there. that's the advantage of living in the Philippines. a lot of beaches and water sports to try.

but the disadvantage? there is no snow. i could not experience snowfights, snowman and the luxury skiing holidays. this makes me dream of going to Meribel, France and St. Anton, Austria to experience the luxury ski chalets in St Anton. that would be a wish for me. not only the skiing experience but first to be able to go to those places. a place where there is snow. and stay there for a year to be able to experience changes in season as Renny always brag about. hehehehe. because here in the Philippines, there are only two seasons, summer and rainy seasons. and be able to ski. for i have always associated skiing with luxury and for rich people. and even for just once in my life, i would like to experience that, wouldn't you?

oh well... after writing about sleeping and dreaming, this is one dream that i would make sure would come true.

sleep

i love to sleep. it is something that i do not have any difficulty doing. i can sleep anywhere and even if it's noisy and with lights on. even while sitting. i think if i would like to, i can sleep standing up. just like my dad. but of course what makes me sleep more comfortably is having a nice bed. of course the bed should have a very comfortable bedding. a big bed with lots of pillows that would want me to just stay in bed. i have always loved pillows. ever since i was a kid, my bed should have lots of pillows. even if the pillows would occupy 95% of the bed, it would be okay with me.

also for me, a bed with lots of pillow would make a bedroom enchanting. yes, i am really using the word enchanting for it. hehehe. well, it really is enchanting when you see a bed. coz when you lie down and get to sleep, you go to far away places, beautiful and not, through your dreams. dreams that you imagine and dreams from your unconscious mind.

lately, i am having weird dreams. not really that weird but i can remember my dreams and my dreams are related to whatever is happening in my life. i think my dreams now are saying how truly i feel even if i try to hide it.

Just Wait and See

it had been a remarkable saturday for me. i was supposed to go to divisoria with officemates but since i'll just have to meet them there, i did not push through anymore. so i just attended mark10 instead and had a film showing on old testament Bible stories. and i'm really thankful i attended mark10. then i saw two of my highschool bestfriends that night.. jay and ljieu. i miss rlyn tuloy.

though i have heard the story of Joseph the Dreamer a million times, it still touched my heart when i watched the cartoons. what really inspired me were two parts. when the prison guard was telling the pharaoh about Joseph. that even if his brothers wanted to kill him and sold him, he never cursed God. and next is when his brothers apologized to him in selling him. and Joseph just answered that it was God's plan. for if it did not happen, they will die coz of the famine.

i don't curse God but i always question Him when things i pray for do not happen. and even if Joseph was a really good and faithful man to God, he was still imprisoned but because of that he became a pharaoh. and as i told jay later that night, it made me realize that maybe that's what God is doing to me. coz in the future i'll be the leader of the world. bwahahaha.

after mark10, i met up with jay. told her about a little disappointment. and she said that God has a greater plan for me. my mom also said that, and i know everyone will say that and i just want to hear God say me to me right now what is His plan. coz i hate to wait. i am not patient. and i'm telling God i'm not praying for patience so don't give me the opportunity to be patient. then jay said.. "isn't it frustrating when everyone around you is moving and yet God is asking you to be still.." exactly! that's exactly what i'm feeling right now! as in!

of course we discussed the cartoons that i've seen that afternoon. and she said what struck her from the story of joseph is that for 10 years, he was in a cell. God made him wait in a cell. and he excelled in a cell. so when we feel that we are in a garbage bin, let's try to be the best trash there is.

yesterday, God's message had been loud and clear. Wait.. Be still... i guess He's really preparing me for something great. and i'll just be the best trash. hehehe. i am praying that i'll not be impatient and try to jeopardize His plans for me. hehehe.
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much later that night. actually, early morning already. 1am na kaya. i met up with ljieu. yup, even if i'm super sleepy already, i still met kathreen. coz it might be years before i'll see her again. ljieu had known me since first year highschool so she knew me before a lot of people. anyway, we've talked about my bedroom, and my mom's rule on no eating in bedrooms. and that there are lots of ants on my bed and i don't know why since food is not allowed in the room. i just said: "i guess i'm just really sweet that's why there are ants." and with a shocked face she said, "tin? ikaw sweet?" i said yup. people do change. if others would ask me if i've changed.. i'll say "yes. now i'm sweet." hahaha. my mom's description for me before would be.. "hindi siya malambing." now, i can say i am. bakit ba? gusto ko sabihin na malambing na ako eh. hahahaha.

I Fell in Love

Yup! i fell in love last weekend. i fell in love with wakeboarding. actually, with kneeboarding pa lang pala. hehehe. but for me it's still wakeboarding. hehe.

my harper friends prefer surfing more, but for me it's really wakeboarding. as denise puts it, wakeboarding is for the less patient. and that's me! hahaha. also with surfing you should know how to balance. and i'm really not good in that part. and i don't get much bruises in wakeboarding.. it's just my muscles. unlike in surfing where the surfboard will always hit you. i have low tolerance with pain, remember? hehehe.

i don't know. i just fell in love with wakeboarding. even if i was not able to finish one round. as in i want to experience it again. aside from scuba diving, wakeboarding is now included in my what to repeat water adventure list. and it's a sport i want to master. maybe, what made me more like it is that i was able to make my first turn the next day when hours ago, i was being problematic coz i thought i won't be able to hold the bar for long.

see! i literally fell! hehehe

i guess, i won't be that inlove with wakeboarding if not for my friends and the people in Lago de Oro where we stayed and learned the sport. the people in the resort are really nice. though they called me sir twice, i still find them nice. the place says a quiet neighborhood. it's true! i just don't know if it's what our neighboring rooms will say. hehehe.

it was really a fun weekend. even if my muscle joints really hurt even up to this day, the weekend really made me relax. it made me de-stress. (is there such a word? hehehe). for a very stressful week/month, it is a great way to end it. thank you wakieboardies for the very fun weekend. especially to gabe who really made us all relax and put a smile on our faces. hehehe.

special message to denise: nonsense excuse mo. why? coz i was in a similar situation as you are. and still it didn't stop me from trying and enjoying.

*thanks to gabe for my wakeboarding pictures.

Wordsy Words

"What is she revenging for?"

is there something wrong with the statement? when i asked my officemates if it's the right grammar, they told me.. "is there such a word as revenging?" and i said yes. it's the act of revenge. so i checked google and a dictionary, and there's such a word. hehehe. still they insist that there isn't. until an officemate said: "there's such a word.. it's a tin-tin word."

there was also this one time when i replied to a text with a new word. and an older officemate asked if it's what the youth today uses.. a younger officemate just replied.. "no, tin-tin just invented that word." hehehe.

i love to invent words. hehehe. by placing suffixes such as -ish, -er, -ness, -ly, and all other suffixes. hahaha. most of the words i've invented are not planned.. such as the care of-care of. situation called for it. and also the words i invent, you can easily know the meaning. but some words i invented in purpose. like badder. promise! it's badder.. coz i was between bad and worse, so it's badder. hehehe. why do i invent words? just for fun. i don't know.. it's make it more fun to say these words. hehehe. unlike if i just use an ordinary word. hahaha. honestly, i am not conscious about it until someone will pinpoint or will use these words. hahaha.

**re revenging. i know i should have used avenging instead. but i prefer revenging.. it's like i will demand you in court. hehehe.
(note: tagalog word of sue is demanda, so some thought that the english term for demanda is demand)

SGG

tin-tin, ghalya, zettes trina, marj, nice

the SGG! my first barkada in college. i'm sure people who have known me in my latter years in college do not know this. hehe. it's because, two of them have left the country by that time already and the other three... well, we just go out once in a while.

i miss these girls. they made my first years in college really fun. when other freshmen students were crying coz they feel homesick, we're out partying. even if there are exams, we would still go out at night. and we would still have good grades. except for ghalya and i and math17. hehe.

i haven't seen these girls for ages. except for zettes and marj, who are here in the philippines for some weeks. the other three are now in the US. i remember when trina just left the country, she would text me saying.. the SGG Cali Chapter had a party the night before.

we have different personalities (trust me on this), yet we still became friends, had fun and shared good memories with each other.

we don't see each other anymore.. but we are still friends. still communicating once in a while. sharing pictures, exchanging letters and text messages. the Cali girls even shared an apartment at one point or are neighbors. and i hope we'll have a grand reunion on december for marj's wedding.

our lives now may be entirely different from our freshmen days, with work, kids, and everything, but we still know how to have fun and how it is to party!


a little game... if you would be able to guess the meaning of SGG, you will have a prize :)

Moving On is Hard to Do

some friends and i were talking and the topic became breaking-up. and here's what we realize why it is hard to move on...

when you are still together, of course there are happy moments. but of course there are sad and bad moments. especially right before the break-up. and when you break-up... all you could think of are the happy moments. this is the perfect time for you to think about all the bad memories. but all you could think of are the good ones. so now, you are having a hard time to move on. now, all you do is cry asking yourself why and what happened coz everything is perfect. but you don't realize it's not. there are also times it's not. that it's bad. but you forget about it. you forget all the hurts you've experienced.

i'm going to be mean. but why is it that the things we have to remember in the moving on stage are the good memories? can't it be the bad ones so that we'll have an easier time to move on? wala lang...

Money Talks

I’m so happy yesterday! I finally found a dvd copy of Moulin Rouge. And it’s an original copy! So before sleeping, I watched it. Actually, I just watched those with the singing parts. That is how much I love to sing.

Anyway, there was this singing dialogue between Satine and Christian where he says that all we need is love, and yet Satine would answer back that it is money. So, what do we really need? Since I do not have a lovelife, I think it is money for me now. Hahahaha. Finding money is easier than finding a boyfriend. So I am really going with money now. Hehehe.

So since I need to make money, I signed up to payperpost. Yup. I’m really grabbing almost every blog money-making thing. That’s how hard life is. Actually, carey introduced me to this for the longest time already, but it is only now that I’m really into this. Hehehe. Coz before, I do not want to infect my blog with money making matters, but now times call for it. And also, I got inspired with how carey does it. It is not obvious that she is writing an ad. Carey, you’re really my idol with this stuff. And you’ll forever be associated with it already. Hahaha. So now I am starting to hear money talks. Is this bad?

Girls that Rock Award

they are simple, humble and ordinary people. not famous (except in the blog world i think). they are not called your highness. they did not have any solo concerts yet that have been sold out. you cannot find any albums of them in your favorite record bars. their cribs have not been featured in mtv cribs. they do not have their own tv show. but these girls rock! they have their own fans. and i'm one of them. why? because they are astig!

from the kingdom of cambodia... a musician/lawyer/diplomat who is so good in the kitchen (i'm talking about eating not cooking), and now a certified blogger with a matching feature in manila bulletin... You Rock Ate Toe!
actually, this award is from her passed on to me. that is why it really is an honor. coz the award is like made for her, and yet she is generous to pass it to someone like me. i'm not worthy. i'm not worthy. (with matching bowing). hehe

from one musician to another. a really great singer (i bet most of you didn't know that). but now a good housewife to her hubby and a sweet mommy to Baby A. and if you think of Turkey only as a food every thanksgiving, then read her blog to know how it is to live there. the diva of turkey... You Rock Duke!

a businesswoman at heart. not only with her own business but also with blogging. she can advertise without you knowing it. memes are attracted to her. people would always tag her. and as a revenge, she made her own meme which can be read from many blogs already. from the city of smiles, bacolod city... You Rock Carey!

don't be fooled with her sweet face, coz she can really be sarcastic and ruthless if she wants to (hehehe). she can think of out-of-this world topics. and 13 is a meaningful number for her. she can think of 13 different things that are in the same category and i am sure you would not think of that. an architect who is also a dancer (during flower festivals. hahaha), and definitely a creative writer. from the summer capital of the philippines, baguio city... You Rock Alternati!

here's my list of the Girls that Rock and it's up to them if they want to pass their award to another person. hehehe.

here's the Diyosa ng Kagandahan (Goddess of Beauty) signing off....

Weekend Movie Singing

last weekend (the really long weekend), i just stayed at home. i really planned of not going out except last sunday for mass and for the wedding preps of marj. i just indulged myself with tv, dvd, internet, computer games, sleep. hehehe. and i was really contented. why? because it seems that it was only last weekend that i really had some rest. it was a lazy weekend for me. it's like i didn't have any pressure or whatever.

and since i slightly had a dvd marathon (movies coz i finished the tv series already), almost all the movies i watched have a good soundtrack. and the good thing about dvd, some of it have lyrics showing. and this made me enjoy the movie more, coz i get to sing along. hahaha. that is why i watched again and again Love Actually. it's not only because i love their soundtrack, but also the movie itself. i love it!

haay... how i wish i'll find a dvd of Moulin Rouge and The Sound of Music...

weekend is fast approaching again.. any plans for the weekend? and what movie soundtrack is your favorite?

All About Me

i want to post something but i don't have abything to post. so i'm just going to steal this from Jamie. yup, jamie. we miss you!

i'm not posting the rules coz there'll be no rules. hehehe. i hope you'll answer it. thanks :)

1. Tin-tin is _____.
2. Tin-tin loves _____.
3. Tin-tin is my _____.
4. Tin-tin needs _____.
5. Someday Tin-tin will be _____.
6. Tin-tin reminds me of _____.
7. Without Tin-tin, _____.
8. Tin-tin has a tendency to be _____.
9. Only Tin-tin can _____.
10. I've been wanting to tell Tin-tin that _____.
11. If Tin-tin is the answer what is the question? _____.
12. If Tin-tin is a song in your head what would it be? _____.
13. A one liner for Tin-tin would be _____.

have fun! :)

A 5th Grader's Dream

it's always said that when a door closes, a window is opened. i didn't very much feel that quote until recently when an email was sent somehow like that. it's about thanking God for closed doors just as much as you're thankful for open doors.

last year, i thought i was going to transfer to a new company, a (slightly) dream company.. but i don't know what happened. it didn't push thru. i really questioned God. but after reading the email, i've realized something. if not for that, i wouldn't make a step in fulfilling my ultimate dream. and so now i've made a step. i applied for my dream to come true. and now i'm asking for your prayers. hahaha. coz for me i only have ten percent of passing. but i'm really hanging on that ten percent. so guys please pray for me. thank you :)

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last night, while i was channel surfing, i came across a quiz show in QTV. the title is Are You Smarter Than a 5th Grader? it's like who wants to be a millionaire but the people who can help you are 5th graders. the questions ranged from 1st grade to 5th grade subjects. yup, they are. and of course since they are elementary topics, and i've graduated a long time ago.. i flunked. hahaha.

sample of the questions i was not able to answer:
What sphere is the lowest layer of the earth? --> well, i remember before that i had a hard time memorizing all these spheres.. mesoshpere, troposhphere, etc.
How many feet in a mile?
How many moons does mars have?
How many of the interior angles in a scalene triangle have the same number of degrees? --> okay.. this is a 3rd grade question. i can't remember that in our 3rd grade math.

haaay... if i'm not even smarter than a 5th grader.. how can i fulfill my dreams? see! i badly need your prayers. hahahaa :)

Heroes

i have just finished watching Heroes. a tv series in america that almost all of my friends have finished watching months ago. we had a dvd months ago but i have not seen it until last weekend. and i liked it.

but honestly, when i see matt partman, the one who can read minds, i get bothered. it's like when i watched the movie What Women Want starring Mel Gibson. it's scary. more scary than those with nuclear power. it's because, it's like my mind is the only thing where i can have my privacy. my thoughts, dreams, etc. it's like the only place where i can be secured. did you get it? basta... after watching the movie and again heroes, it always make me think that i should be careful with my own thoughts coz someone might be able to read it.

one thing you would hear from he series over and over again is the word... destiny.

have you ever thought what your destiny is? and if ever you'll have a superpower, what would it be?

Friendster Testimonials

after two weeks of absence, i've attended Mark 10 again. i missed the kids but they didn't miss me. they were not listening to me and yung iba inaaway ako. especially jom who's 11 y.o. (am i right tim?). he asked me how old i am, and when i said i'm 26, he blurted out: "why are all the 26 year old that i know fat?" saya diba? thank you very much jom! but as i said in my comment on your friendster, i understand you coz you're now EMO. hahaha.

to lift my spirits up and with nothing to do since plans for tonight didn't push thru, i read my testimonials in friendster. and most are funny and really described me. and i'm posting them here. so this is a looooong post. you don't have to read it. it would just serve as a reminder for myself when i am feeling down. and i won't translate it. but don't worry everyone.. i'll summarize them for you. coz what are written are just the same. and for those who have all the time in the world, you can guess who wrote it. hehehe. and of course the testimonials there are basically chosen. hehehe.

basically, the testimonials just say that: I am a good singer, dancer. Friendly.. a kind, generous friend who is fun to be and really pretty. hahaha. i love having my own blog. i can write anything. hahaha ;p

here are the testimonials:

the thing that i love about tin tin is the fact that she is super ma-kwento. it seems like she never ran out of amusing stories to tell. she's very dedicated to her endeavors and amazingly, she still finds time for gimmick. this girl has an amazing voice. Hehehe. NOT!!!!

d best external affairs head, sobrang mahal ang org…laging me free dessert everytime may meeting…sobrang magalaw kya ang galing sumayaw! Hehehe… Anyway, one of the best listeners, you can tell her anything without being judged. Tsismosa in other words. ang daling ayain sa mga gimiks and kainan (sosyal yan). Mapang-asar on the side.

ang laki ng improvement at transformation ng girl na to when she joined the tambourine. if before she used to be shy , ngayon,waahh....ang galing ng sumayaw...

I can easily tell her my secrets and problems and i know she wont tell. Great dancer..her new motto: "Practice makes perfect!"

super masayang kasama and laging libre ang dessert ng externals...

videoke queen yan...super galing kumanta yang si tin-tin..

A Praise & Worship dancer at heart. Polite and friendly but don't be deceived by all her "opo's" & "po's" coz she'll strike you with her pranks, antics & pang-aasarz... grrr... when u least expect it.hehehe...:) Inspite of her sneakiness... she'll touch you with her thoughtful gestures. ;)

c tintin ang isa sa mga pinakabading na sisses sa econsoc noon (marlet and tj ung iba!)..define tsismis at alam nia yan lhat!mega business woman din yan.do u still remember nung one time na nagtry k magpka feeling "conservative" ? kakloka! d nia rin natiis!

Tin loves (and struggles) to tell jokes. But mind you, this sweet and funny (videoke-loving) lady is a friend you can always rely on. She usually plays Ate Helen, listening to friends' problems and what-have-you's, and of course, giving advice. One thing I find amusing with her... she's updated with the latest buzz (in and out of showbiz, hehehe) and with her oh, so keen intuition, she knows the latest tsismis even before it happens.

tin is one person who never fails to bring sunshine wherever she goes, ever lively, sobrang makulit.

very reliable and very patient...someone who doesn't complain even though i surprise her with a lot of favors...

Proven na ba naten na ang gaganada lage ng mga externals com heads.. hehe. she
sometimes has the tendency of switching from one topic to another without any
warning or transition at all hehe but that's ok, we catch up eventually. The best ka
talaga bakla, videoke, party, tequila days, e4 days,midnight society...

Grabe super saludo ko sa pagiging friendly and "ALWAYS AROUND" ng girl na to! whew! She's always there when you need her and despite her busy life she makes it a point that she'll always have time with everything and everyone that matter to her...sound super girl ba? coz she really is!!

bait kasi hinatid ako sa bahay kahit kelngan na nilang umuwi

super super simple and super baitÜ cia ung kaibigan na di mu kailangan makita para masabi mong friend mo... khit na may age gap kmi,i easily got along with her...u will really feel comfortable whenever ur with herÜ

We love to try out cafes in LB and wherever, actuallly...

She's one of the missing link between the more mature members of the org and the
youngsters. Sya nga pala ang kauna-unahang resident econsoc na nagka-celphone (ako pager lang nun). Kahit sa Space Shuttle man o sa jeep o sa kalsada, walang mintis yan kakakasend ng text.

sha yung tipong friend na di mo na kaylangan makita para malaman mong nandiyan lang.

Super bait, parang hindi nagagalit... AS IN!!!

si kristine na siguro ang may pinaka astig na boses sa balat ng lupa. yun tamang d mo makakalimutan. she accepts me for who i am, but let's me know when i am going too far na.

Mapagmahal, mabait at mapagbigay

kahit sa phone lang kami nag uusap di ka talaga mabobored.

she’s a sweet, thoughtful (for she never forgets to text me whatever event is happening), humble, God-fearing person and a true friend to me…

Define sweet. You were frowning because your day didn’t turned out right but then somebody far away texted you with this line “Smile! Jesus in me loves you.” That’s Tin and she knows exactly when you’re feeling down.

Pano though she's 2 years older, she looked cuter and younger to! hehe. I admire ur conviction to stand by ur decisions.

she's kind n very friendly, n she'll always make u feel na ur a welcome addition 2 her friends.

trivia: mlayo p lng sya sa tambayn makikita mo ang super todo hi w/ todo smiling face nya and its enough to lighten up your mood.

madami at mahilig yan magtanong ng kung anu-ano..... never a time na nagkita kami na hindi nya ko tinanong:)

before kala ko mataray siya, pero sooobra bait niya.

she really understands na feeling mo sa kanya mismo nangyayari yun.

ever the so ruffa mae econsoc sis... ay ewan ko d2 sa sis ko na 2 masyadong kikay... pagtinawagan mo pa sa phone ang sagot... howdy dowdy... hehehehe well she's is so kind, sweet, gentle and .... murderous! shes the ultimate chikadora bloc mate...

sobrang touched ako sa kanya kasi ang lambing nya sa akin kahit minsan e nasusungitan ko sya...

ito na ata ang pinaka-funny na taong kilala ko. as in! ang lupet mag-joke! no dull moment! true scorpio indeed.

Tintin..very religious...child of God...sweet, sensible though I must say she's one helluva job-hopper

si tin ay makulit. si tin ay mabait. si tin ay madaldal. si tin ay sikat -- literally, may
kilala sa kahit anong college sa campus..all courses well-represented sa circle of friends nya, hehe ;)si tin ay friendly. sobra. kahit bagong kilala ka pa lang nya, she has a way of making people very at ease with her..

Pag nakikitira ako dati sa house nila sa whitehouse super maalaga yan.. Mega
luto ng breakfast..pakape..you name it. Taz meron kameng common dream nyan, to
see our faces sa lifestyle section ng newspaper.. he he he!! Mala socialtie ba.

and she never fails to include me in her prayers..

sobrang bait, pero she can hold her subordinates. lagi kaming may choco mousse every externals meeting! and, the theme of the externals committee? "committee ng mga
magaganda't gwapo".. just look at our head, and that proves it. :)

si tin e good listener.kahet simpleng kwento lang e makikinig siya sa iyo... si tin,never
nakamiss ng bati sa akin yan...birthday at even anivversary...ang sweet nga kc she never forgets...

Tin is super God-loving, kaya minsan pag feeling ko hindi ko na kaya ang lyf I ask her to
pray for me....Laging nanjan, super sarap kausap, funny madalas, serious kung minsan...and always ready to listen to the latest chika and even the smallest of all problems. Super sensitive na friend, kaya naman feeling ko maski hindi ikwento sa kanya ung mga chika eh mejo gets parin nya. Intuitive, yep that's tin. Loving, un rin. Grabe nga itong magmahal eh

it wouldn't be the same without rocha's morning prayer..i always look forward to her texts..at minsan sakto tlaga! hay..thanks talaga for the never-ending and untiring inspiration you're giving me..you're such an angel!

a vry supportive frend!hehehe and a vry generous one 2!!

the 1st time i noticed her was way back year 2004 yata yon, someone (a guy)commented saying "i like that girl, she's pretty".. then sabi ko oo nga, sino sya? after that lagi ko na syang napapansin kc medyo madaldal (hehehe)!!! she's very friendly, always wearing a sweet smile... smart and self-confident, she knows how to carry herself that's why she's sexy..

u know what's her fav. sOng??? "i will survive"... grabe tlaga hataw nya! kya, wherever i may go, pag naririnig kO yang sOng na yan, xa agad naaalala kO! hehe(",)

shes very accommodating...and friendly talaga shes the type na i-aapproach ka kapag medyo na-a-out of place ka prang ganun bsta shes really nice un po..

She will just pop up in your phone sending a prayer msg na nakaka touch.

ewan ko ba kung bakit sa kakupalan mo sakin ay itinuturing parin kitang kaibigan... :)

mdaling mksundo yan. sana lng (mader) wag masyado sensi at mtampuhin. d rin
pikon yan. pero pikunin ko man yan, mdaling hanapin kiliti nyan. AS IN!

AnG ShEpHeRd KoNg....... kakaiba.....?

KORNY!

but seriously c tintin ay super friendly & hindi sya plastik na frend as in, akalin mo naman b first met namen eh feeling close na ka agad namen hehe para bang magkakilala na kme matagal na ganun ba, but until now ganun pa rin sya na super mabait,super & very approachable (lalo na pagdating sa money hehe joke),& super masaya kasama as in hindi ka maboboring' wag mo nga lang pakantahin bka mag backout na kayo sa gimmick hehe joke actually may potential naman po sya eh promiz!!!

hoy ang paplastik ng mga kaibigan mo ha! diva k daw?!! alam ko lng sobrang taas ng confidence level ng babaeng to. cia ung tipong d ka mgddlawang isip lapitan pag kailangn mo ng tulong, advise, maski pera (hehe) o basta kailngn mo ng kaibigan period. thats because she has a way of making people around her feel special. her sunny disposotion can light up an otherwise dull mood.nd she is so open and bubbly that (yes) we can talk about nything under the sun and moon

tin?! wat can i say..uhmmm.. nde po sya tin!! Wahaha mas bata ko sa kanya.. but she acts, sometimes, like she's yonger than i am..hmmmm.. she's sweet.. pretty.. mabait.. and chubby.. hehe..kala mo puro positive sasabhin ko noh? :-)

Pero tuwing nag-uusap kami, siguradong madami na namang kuwento, dahil hindi siya nauubusan ng tsismis.

c tin, ang lakas ng loob na makipag pasexy-han sakin.. ewan ko ba.. angat lang sya sakn sa boobs and mas straight ang hair nya.. yun lang. good thing we became friends kahit sobrang layo ng age gap namin.. ;)

Matiyagang kausap sa chat at maraming insights sa buhay.

she's fun to be with. there would be no dull moment if your with her. cool kasama. pag may problema pwdeng lapitan kausapin. talk about anything under the sun and not be afraid of being rejected.

parang beauty and beauty combined..

probably, the most promising diva of our time...

sobrang kulit pero sobrang loving and caring... pero paminsan may pagka-childish... mahilig din sa mga jokes na...ehem... sige na nga...ahhm nakakatawa (ang hirap sabihin nun ah! hehe, joke lang po)..

funny nga yan eh kasi mahilig manlibre khit wala lang..nakkahiya tuloy..super kulet din..parang lasing kausap..haha!

palatawa, laging nakangiti :) galing din kumanta, hanep! 1st time i heard her sing, napanganga talaga ako..as in!

pagsinabi ko ng "TIN!" alam na nya na may major chika..hehe ;p wlang tatalo dito kpag nag videoke na! fave nyang song (dat tym) na kantahin: WEAK.

Tintin is very sweet.always asking how you have been doing.she’s such a good listener.always ready to take a couple of minutes off her precious time to listen to your anecdotes(interesting or otherwise)or your simple whims&wailings.She is very easy to please(a good thing).so easy in fact that a simple McDonald’s Hello Kitty doll would briskly send her on flying on cloud nine.

Although we aren't that close, being with her makes me feel that we really are close friends. walang ilangan and super prankahan, never kang magsisising magpakatotoo dito! super nice pa, bagay n bagay sa kanyang cute na smile...

She's someone in my past that I keep going back to again and again... and again.

basta, ok ang personality medyo corny nga lang lalo na pag nag-joke tungkol sa ngongo, kahit ilang beses ipakwento sa kanya yung joke, go pa rin ito! ;) ibang klase din syang mag-observe, akalain mong napansin daw nya yung d naman kapansinpansin..

The magnetism and the charm, walang tatalo kay Tintin.

A good ate to ERIC and DIANE.

she has the power of blab. She can talk to almost everyone in her path. Excellent p.r.

She use to be very quiet, shy type of person… But now, I’m really surprised that she’s grown to be a very articulate and confident young lady. Simpleng tao lang ‘yan si Tin-tin

tin-tin is a take in charge person, she was our block party coordinator. such a great memory and have a knack for cheering everyone up.

galing magalaga. pag may nahihiyang sabihin laging nakatawa, iba un smile sa nakatawa ah.

C tin2x ang taong kapupulutan mo ng mga unique jargons w/ matching convincing facial expressions pa..c: u can also count on her sa kahet saang gimik, no wonder why she became the external head ng econsoc. One thing she hates most...IPIS!...pareho kame, lalo na yung flying ones!

ang taong kakambal ang phone nung college, nakakamangha dati dahil nakakapagtext habang mistulang nakikinig sa klase (hanggang natuto na rin ako, so hindi na gaanong amazing) magigitla ka na lang pag makareceive ka ng inspirational text messages from her out of the blue.

Tin is really the typical racho. Vain... but has every right to be vain due to our lineage of natural beauties lol She is out-spoken and a religious person.

Extra Income

coz of my new look, i need to buy new clothes.. visit the parlor and just spend. hahaha. but with my depleting salary, i need to have an extra income. good thing there is blogging, where you can express yourself and also earn extra income when needed. like smorty, where you will get paid for blogging. isn't that cool? and another great thing about it is that it is easy to join. and so far i am earning. it is easy as counting from one to three. and while writing, i also get to update my blog and my readers with what's happening. if not for this post, you would not know that i have a new image. i have a new haircut, and when i had this haircut, i said i will also have a new look in life. meaning i will be positive on things that come my way coz i have a pretty hair, so i should not ruin my day. hehehe. See! I have updated you with my life and at the same time got paid for my blog.

9 Things About Me

3x3 is 9. so 9 things about me. hehehe

i've been tagged by thinz. in times like this that i hate the who viewed this post of multiply. hehehe. but it's okay coz i have nothing to post.

3 Things Most People DO NOT KNOW about You.

- my weight
- my waistline
- my landline number -> i don't give my home number coz i'm usually not at home. and my also not my office number coz i'm at the office to work

3 Things Most People THINK THEY KNOW about You.

- my lovelife -> it's like i always hear that i'm dating so and so. popular! hahaha
- my feelings at the moment -> it's like i've proven to myself that i can be an actress. hala! wearing a mask! hehehe
- ummm... they think they know me too well? i can't think of anything else to write. hehehe ;p

3 Things Most People ASK YOU about Yourself.

- may boyfriend ka na? (do you have a boyfriend already?)
- bakit wala ka pang boyfriend? (why don't you still have a boyfriend?) -> i'm not sure ha. but maybe if i know why, then maybe i have a boyfriend already
- when are you getting married? -> don't worry. when i get to have a boyfriend, we'll go straight to the church. hehehe

Boss Poly

this is in honor of the first boss who believed in me. wait! it was sir jp. first boss in my present company na lang. hehehe. vp poly gonzales. i can still remember my job interview with him. since our work would be dealing with financials, he asked me this:

boss: what are the types of financial statement?
me: income statement and... the one with the debit-credit...
(after how many minutes of me insisting about the debit-credit)
boss: income statement and balance sheet
me: yes! that's it! the balance sheet.
(syet! asset-liabilities nga pala yun! hahaha. buti naintindihan niya ako. hehehe)

and when he learned that i'm an economics graduate:
boss: do you think it is important if we will import?
me: yes sir.. because chuva chuva
boss: but chuva chuva
me: no! we still need to import because.. chuva chuva
(okay, i forgot our conversation. but i remember that i argued with him, even if i have to impress him. i still argued with him)

and even if i argued with him. and my answers were really stupid. he liked me! he believed in me! i was not supposed to work there anymore but he called for me and told me his plans for me. and he said the magic word. travel! hahaha. so, i started the next day, his birthday (july 23). if not for gloria's austerity measures, i would have travelled in my first months. was only able to travel after a year (in bohol). and it was with him. and after that, almost every month, i get to travel. mostly with him. but he always remember our first travel. especially my singing prowess. he is my number one fan when it comes to singing. hahaha. he even has this rule: i would not sing when i'm on travel or else i could never travel again. and of course i argued again.

me: but boss, you won't be with me in this travel. you won't hear me sing. then i can sing.
boss: i won't hear you. but you're representing crmd (our department)

okay! he won! that's why i got to sing only in bohol. hahaha. and when i was telling his wife about our plans of a little tribute for him the next day, she asked if i'm going to sing. i said no.. he might rise from his coffin. hehehe.

he did not only believe in my talents (talagang feel ko pagiging singer ha. hehehe), he also believed in my capabilities. he would sometimes call me to take down the minutes of the meeting even if it does not involve me because he knows that i can listen and still take down notes, or is it because my crush was there that's why he called me. hahaha. that's him! sometimes, you don't know if he's serious. coz when you start to believe him, you'll then realize that there's a punchline in the end.

a very smart boss. even if you can see that he doesn't feel good anymore and really sickly, he still has a great mind. he still can think of a solution to the company's problems. yup, he cares that much for our company.

the day he passed away (july 6, 2007), my ym status message was i will miss you boss. someone teased me of being a hypocrite and thought my boss was just transferring to another country. but the truth is, i will really miss him. and i believe it's not only me who will miss him. but everyone in our department. he really had been a father to us young ones and a friend to the older ones. until now, we would talk to him. and just recently, when my top is new, my officemates telling me that if boss poly was still alive, he would probably be teasing me. i'm sure he would.

i thought my first friendster blog (i'm cross-posting this to my blog), would be a goodbye blog/note to my officemates if i'm going to transfer companies. but it's a goodbye for boss poly pala. inunahan ako ni boss. hehehe.

i know my description is not enough. well, he's the man who always want reports to be simple and concise. and i know i have not known him that much especially only with three years. but still, i am thankful to God. coz he really had been a blessing. the kind of boss that i really prayed for.

thank you so much boss poly for being not only a great boss but also for being a father to me. and belated happy birthday! i miss you boss.

kuya jo, prettytin, boss poly, psy, atty. kristine

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for the pictures of his wake and funeral, you can see it here.
and watch our little tribute, here.

Online Store

i think as everyone else, i would like to have a business of my own. but there are several problems, the capital and also what kind of business. well, there are some business that needs small capital, but the main problem is the kind of business to enter into. also, the location. now, that is also a big problem especially with the high rentals. yes, there are a lot of rising buildings but still the rental. money is not that easy now. good thing we are living in a computer age, and somehow the problem of location and other stuff is minimized. where almost everything you would need is virtual, like your address (just the website address), even the customer's shopping cart. so i think it's a nice option for me to have my store online. but i still need tutorials for this, even if my thesis is on virtual shopping. hehehe. well, there is an ecommerce software that can help me. and i think with everything going online and every house having computers, and computer classes are being taught in pre-school, i think even an elementary student can now have his own online store. hmmm... next thing we know, the richest person in the world is a 12-year old student.

Photography Still at Its Finest

due to public demand, i'm posting a part two of my favorite photographers. and this time, i did not ask permission from them anymore. sorry guys. i also hope i'm not forgetting anybody. and unlike also my first blog, i didn't take time to think of the blogs. i'm just posting whoever comes into mind..

Kuya Marvin - asvance happy birthday! this is my birthday gift to you. hehehe. kuya marvin's blog is mostly about his son, and the pictures are his son and of course ate jopay, his wife. but recently, he went to boracay for as outing of their office. and i really liked his pictures. that is why i'm including him here



Abaniko - some asked me why he was not included in my list before. dami mong fans pala! hehehe. he just started taking photography a little seriously last year. but it's not obvious that he's just starting.



Konrad - Sir KO is the only professional here, i think. he really knows how to take photos. and he's really generous in giving tips to improve your photography skills. just reading the comments in his site would teach you a lot of stuff. puro photographers kse nag-uusap. hehehe. and i love this photo coz when i saw this, i felt dizzy. hehehe



Enoc - he's amateur daw. but he's going good also. and his photoblog has a daily reflection that until now i'm still trying to know if it's connected with the picture or not.



Kyels - was supposed to be included in my first list. but was not there. sorry.. still a student. and i think would like to be a professional photographer in the future



Rey - an artistic architect cum comics artist and now turning photographer. multi-talented and really artistic. i think he's turning his blog into a photoblog now.



Perth - he's really into photography. he took a course and now he's applying what he learned especially with the magic of photshop. hehehe



Ralph - of course he's included! sayang ang sosyal na camera if he'll not be included. and syempre the picture should be our picture. hahaha

My New Pal

my hobby for life is forever dieting! hahahaha. and when i go dieting the usual thing that i alsways hear from other people is that i should check the calorie content of the food. and as i was browsing the net, i found the website of myfitnesspal. just from the name, you know that you have a pal or a companion in your dieting. when i was serious before in slimming down, i have a pal of my own. and it's really halpful if you have a diet buddy. coz your buddy will really help you in achieving your goal. i think that was the only time i slimmed down. and now here's myfitnesspal.. a new buddy. it would help me on what i eat, since it has a calorie counter. i don't have to check every back of the package to see the calorie count. before eating, just deciding on what i'll eat, i'll already know how many calories i will get from the food. and not only that, you just say your desired weight and timeframe, and it will tell you how many pounds you have to lose in a day. what you should eat, and of course exercise! dieting without exercise is nonsense. and the greatest thing about my new pal? it's free!!!

Idio(t)syncrasy

once again, i've been tagged by carey. i don't know. it's like she loves me so much that whenver she has to tag someone, she thinks of me. and since i also love carey.. i'm doing it. hehehe. but since i've done this already in the past and i it's a long list, i also copied some from my former posts. and some are not weird at all. it's just what makes me Pretty Tin

1. when i try to add something, even large amounts, i try to compute it manually first. then i check it by using the calculator. why? just to see if i still know my addition. hehe

2. all the cellphone numbers that are listed in my phonebook is also saved in an excel in my computer and usb.

3. i usually celebrate my birthday after my birthday. and i only invite those who greeted me. that's why the celebration is delayed. hahaha

4. i do not eat vegetables. unless it's salad, and tortang talong or monggo

5. i would rather walk than ride the jeepney. i just don't like riding the jeepneys. coz it's like i feel like i smell more polluted when i ride the jeepney rather than when walking. and you just don't know how sweaty your seatmate would be in the jeep.

6. my shoes don't last that long. i don't know. but the lifespan of my shoes now are only a month. but this only happened to me since last year i think.

7. i sleep with the lights on when i'm alone in the room. and would not be the one to close it when i have companions in the room. basta dapat nakapikit na ako pag nagclose ng lights.

8. before i take a bath, i would look at myself in the mirror then try out different smiles and facial expressions

9. i really hate cockroaches. even just the site of it in pictures. or even if it's dead. i don't wanna go near it. it still has some virus kaya

10. i always trip. when i walk i always trip down. basta ewan ko ba. matatapilok ako at matatapilok

11. i have to drink milk every morning. or whenever within the day. it's like something's amiss when i don't drink milk

12. i can sleep easily. even if there are noises around me, i can sleep well.

13. i hate going to sales. when i know that if a certain mall is on sale, i would not go there. i hate crowded places. i really hate it

14. i cry easily when i get lost. especially if it's a crowded place

15. after i see ace nowadays, i cry. and i don't know why.

yehey! it's tagging time. now, i'm going to tag some people. i hope you'll do this. i choose you because i really wanna know you more and i'm sure you have lots to write. hehehe. so the lucky ones are: idda, tish t., emcee, babsy and lucille.

The Helper

the other month, we were asked to answer several questions, for us to indicate which is the closest quality of us. honestly, it was hard coz somehow the qualities are somewhat the same. then after answering it, the result was given. it was an enneagram kind of test and i was said to be described as The Helper. and the description of The Helper is really right for me. well, some are not, but mostly are soooo true. here's the description and i'll not say what's really me and what's not. i give you the permission to judge me on what's really my personality. hehehe.

The Helper - the caring, interpersonal type: generous, demonstrative, people-pleasing and possessive

Basic fear: of being unwanted, unworthy of being loved
Basic desire: to feel loved

Profile Summary:
Healthy: empathetic, compasionate, feeling for others. Caring and concerned about their needs. Thoughtful, warm-hearted, forgiving and sincere. Encouraging and appreciative, able to see the good in others. Service is important, but takes care of self too: they are nurturing, generous, and giving - a truly loving person. At their Best: Become deeply unselfish, humble, and altruistic: giving unconditional love to self and others. Feel it is a privilege to be in the loves of others.

Average: Want to be closer to others, so start "people pleasing", becoming overly friendly, emotionally demonstrative, and full of "good intentions" about everything. Give seductive attention: approval, "strokes," flattery. Love their supreme value, and they talk about it constantly. Become overly intimate and intrusive: they need to be needed, so they hover, meddle, and control in the name of love. Want others to depend on them. give, but expect a return: send double messages. Enveloping and possessive: the codependent, self-sacrificial person who cannot do enough for others—wearing themselves out for everyone, creating needs for themselves to fulfill. Increasingly self-important and self-satisfied, feel they are indispensable, although they overrate their efforts in others' behalf. Hypochondria, becoming a "martyr" for others. Overbearing, patronizing, presumptuous.

Unhealthy: Can be manipulative and self-serving, instilling guilt by telling others how much they owe them and make them suffer. Abuse food and medication to "stuff feelings" and get sympathy. Undermine people, making belittling, disparaging remarks. Extremely self-deceptive about their motives and how aggressive and/or selfish their behavior is. Domineering and coercive: feel entitled to get anything they want from others: the repayment of old debts, money, sexual favors. Able to excuse and rationalize what they do since they feel abused and victimized by others and are bitterly resentful and angry. Somatization of their aggressions result in chronic health problems as they vindicate themselves by "falling apart" and burdening others. Generally corresponds to the Histrionic Personality Disorder and Factitious Disorder.

Key Motivations: Want to be loved, to express their feelings for others, to be needed and appreciated, to get others to respond to them, to vindicate their claims about themselves.

wellm there you go. sorry if it's a long-read. but if you want to know me more, you have to read this. coz 90% of it is true. i just won't say what. if you know me, you'll know what are the traits that are in me. hehehe. here's the task na lang.. write the line that describes me most. hahaha. nagbigay pa ng task. hehe.

Going Digital

this digiscrap was made by ate mai a long time ago. hahahaha. thanks ate mai! this is part of her ripples of kindness project. i signed up for it. but i don't know if i did a kindness to another person.

the digiscrap is really nice right? i love this digiscrap coz she really described me. and not only that, it's obvious that she really thought hard on what pictures to put to really show who i am. if this is not a digital photo, i'll place it in a photo frame and display it in my room. but since it's a digital photo, i will just have a digital picture frame. and for a conceited person like me (hahaha), i can have more. not only the digital photo frame coz i can have more photos stored. so it's like i'll have a collage or a screensaver. i can display it in my room or in the office. talk about conceitedness! hahaha. yes, i admit. i'm conceited. but at least when i have a guest, s/he can see more faces of me. well, i only have one face eversince, but sometimes i have different moods. but i know the only thing that will be the same is that i have no eyes in my pictures. hehehe.

i'm proud of myself

it all started when the monitor went black. i thought i shut it down accidentally or i just forgot i did. but when i opened the computer an hour after, there's this sound and i can't see anything. since i'm really experimental, i tried to see if all cables are attached securely. but there's this oine that i removed to attach again. but when i removed it, the socket (for the lack of term), fell inside the cpu. as in i was shocked.

really not knowing what to do anymore and super worried, i texted my sister and brother to inform them and for them to call their dad for the computer to be fixed. my sister just gave me the number of the repairman. i called him and i cannot reach him. i just texted the gf of my officemate to ask help from his bf. they called me up. and my officemate is really busy with playing dota, so he can't go to our house and he told me that i can do it. he asked me if i have a screwdriver and if i play family computer when i was still younger. i said yes to both. then he said, i'll do fine.

so i opened the computer. attached the videocard.. and viola! i fixed it! i'm sooooo proud! hahahaha. sorry ha. i'm really proud coz i did it and i was able to save money for something that is so easy to do pala. yabang! hahahaha.

ann and jac, what gift would you like to receive? i'll give you a gift talaga. jac, buti na lang talaga adik ka sa laro. hahaha :)

celebrity friends

one time my mom and i were watching the buzz and my mom commented that am i not glad that i'm not a celebrity or else everyone would know my whole story and would not have any privacy. i don't have to be a celebrity to make my life an open-book. even before blogging, my life is an open-book. what you see is really what you get. i don't think i have anything to keep.

and also i have celebrity friends. well, not really celebrities. but isn't it when you want to be updated with stories of your favorite celebrities, you go to their website or others' website and read their story? well, same thing with my friends. i go to their webistes/blogs/multiply and read their stories. before, it's only friendster and you'll just check the profile if in a relationship or not and look if the picture of your friend is with someone. but i don't check my friendster that much anymore and i don't get to talk to some friends that much. but thanks to multiply and their blogs, i get to know their stories. or some other friend would feature them. it's because of multiply that i've learned that she has a bf now, that they've broken up, that he's now married, etc etc. so aren't they celebrities? coz i've go to read about them online?

honestly, i've got nothing to write. just to have something on my blog. hehe :)

father's day post

the other day my master fitness (the term! hahaha) asked me why i want to slim down.. the main reason.. and i'm giving him all the reasons.. he doesn't buy it. then we went to pleasing people.. told him i'm not pleasing anyone in particular. basta the society. then he mentioned something, and i like reacted sobra. told him the story when my dad said that my ex's current gf is more beautiful than i am because she's smaller than me. and i was like there's a big difference between beauty and sexiness. then master fitness reacted like he got it na. i was trying to please my dad saw. i was like.. what?!?! no, i don't!

then yesterday, i remembered something.. when i was writing my sharing and read it for the first time for the panel.. the reaction of the adults are the same.. i don't see in your sharing how your dad loves you but how you seek acceptance from your dad. my reaction then: "huh? no. he really loved me"

but with my present situation now.. i'm mad again with my dad. actually, i hate him more. it's like they were right. all my life i sought acceptance from my dad. the reason.. coz i never felt that he's really a father. yes, when we were kids he would buy us things, treat us out on weekends, but that's just it. when you need a father, he's not there. i got mad at my dad only last tuesday. and as i told my sister the story, i told her that somehow before we talked i slightly know what would by my dad's reaction to the story but still it was entirely different when i hear him blaming of being oversensitive pa. i admit i'm being too sensitive on things, but i'm sure any girl who was told that would get mad. mabait pa ako at hindi ko sinampal yung nagsabi and i just cried. and i told my sister, he's not really a father. not only because of his reaction last tuesday but also to my sister dati when she got holdapped in a cab.

why are there really assholes?

*i'm sorry for the other fathers out there who deserve to be called a father.. i'm sorry coz this is my father's day post

Randomness

In my last post, I said that I am a badder person and that I miss God. honestly, i was like tampo with Him. but even with all the drama moments with God, He still has been good to me and my family. how? my brother was granted a scholarship. 75%!!! saya! hahaha. and since la salle required that the student be enrolled first before the scholarship will be known, we discovered that we have a refund pa! san ka pa? hehe. it's just P600.00. but the good thing is that for the first time in my brother's 13-year stay in lsgh, it's just now that he is fully paid before the classes start. saya! coz no more worries and problems in the middle of the schoolyear for the payment of the tuition fee. ang saya diba? heehehe.

Finally! i got my diploma. after 5 years? hahaha. i've finished college, summer of 2001, and marched in 2002. and got my diploma only yesterday! hahaha. as my friend who got it told me, she was asked why only now. she even has to make a story that i'm out of the country kse. hehehe.

The other night, i was with some econsoc people. and a question was asked.. what is one thing that you would like to do/accomplish? i was the last to answer. my friend answered to be a UN volunteer or something like that. something like Julia Campbell. and i answered that i just want to travel alone. to go and stay in a place i'm not really familiar with on my own. i've been wanting this for so long but i'm scared. anyway, my friend's answer got me thinking till yesterday. years ago, it's one ultimate dream for me.. to be a UN volunteer or something like that. basta to really make a big difference in this world. but then why when my friend answered that.. i didn't say: "Me too!!" i was just like okay. then it hit me.. yes, i wanted to be one before. but now.. i really did not care if i make a big difference in the world. i want to make a big difference in the life of someone i know, people who are close to me.. friends and family. it's like 'm feeling that my family and friends need me more than other people. i can't explain it clearly but it's like i should help the people around me and by doing so, i'm also making a big difference to the world. did you get it? labo ko talaga! hehehe.

anyway, how about you? what is the one thing you want to do/accomplish?

Just A Quick Note

i feel detached from the world now. why? i don't know. i just do. and i think i'm a badder person. i really chose the word badder and not worse. coz i don't think i'm a worse person but just a badder person. i feel worse but i'm not a worse person. get? and this post is a note for everyone. group of people who had been part of my life...

Amapalaya Club - even if i met you guys only this year, i'm so thankful i did. even if i don't get to talk to you guys often.. i'm just glad you're there. and i really appreciate it when you text me khet nonsense na kung ano lang nangyayari sa inyo. at ang mga kabaliwan ni ate mei and meyms sa text, i really appreciate it. sesh 3 na!

BLD Singles - i haven't been able to attend any SE Weekends this summer. ang sad lang. i didn't make any plans for those weekends so that i would be able to attend, but still.. di ako nakapunta. i miss the ministry. my se classmates, the praise ministry (feeling praise ako ha. hehe), and everyone. but it's like i don't want to attend anymore if i'm alone. lalo na if i'll see kuya jo or kuya alfred.. basta parang takot ako sa kanila ngayon. hehehe. i just hope i'll be able to spend time with you guys again.

BLD Youth - i'm really glad for LSS. as for every LSS, i gain new friends. pero syempre, i also miss the old youth. i miss my old friends, friends that i talked to sooo often before. and now, just forwarded messages or none at all. or i am just updated in the multiply. i'm really thankful for multiply. i just miss talking to you guys. i'm really glad for the showers and the wedding that happened early this year, coz it had been a reunion with you. miss ko lang talaga kayo. as in!

Blogsy Friends - i'm loving this name. hehe. thanks carey. i just want to say thank you for always visiting my blog. i know i don't get to visit your blog often now. laziness factor. but still, you visit my blog. even just dropping by to say hi even if i don't have any updates. thank you for keeping the witty comments coming. i really love reading the comments. it makes my day. thanks!

Byutipulgerls - i'm really sorry girls for disappointing you when i was not able to go with you to visit weng. honestly, i feel guilty. coz i know even if my mom told me not to go, as maje said, pwede ko naman hindi sundin. but that time, i just want to follow her. coz i was not feeling good that day. after crying the whole night.. sobrang babaw ng pag-iyak. sobrang babaw ng takot. pero ayoko talaga nang nawawala especially sa magulong lugar. basta girls, i really am sorry...

Econsoc - i miss you guys. i haven't seen you for the longest time. i thought i'll be back in circulation coz punta nga ako dapat 1st day of june. but no! bad trip talaga ang pag-halfday ko last wednesday. nakakasira ng plano. coz i really miss you guys. i miss college and i miss elbi days. sana matuloy talaga ang cagayan summer getaway in august.

Harpers - i'm really thankful for you guys. coz now i found new travel partners. kala mo naman, dami na natin napuntahan. hehehe. basta till the next spontaneous trip or gimik. nood tayo ng surf's up. when's the manila trip? and lastly, palawan friendster party ha.

Household - i miss you girls. kse kayo ang stress reliever ko here in the office. and wala na kayo. i know i have a new household. pero iba pa din kayo. and di ako nakakaattend ng household na bago. kse lunchtime and after lunch. mahirap dumaan. super busy pa ngayon. ate richie, pagbalik mo.. let's just meet up. bisitahin natin si ann! hehehe

Mark 10 - the only ministry that i attend to. hehe. i'm so thankful for Mark10. dream come true and it's my remaining connection to BLD. and i love the kids. khet makulit kayo, love ko kayo. and feeling ko.. kayo ang makakapagpapayat saken sa sobrang pagod. hehe.

Officemates - saturday overtime! i know you'll miss me that's why i was included sa mga magoovertime khet na di naman dapat. haaay... but even if i see you my dear officemates everyday, i also miss you. it's like i haven't talked to you for some time. have not gone out in gimiks with you. promise! i really feel i'm far from you even if i see you people everyday. maybe because we're all busy now. as in really busy. and i just want to thank you guys for everything, for trusting me and for considering me your friend. naks! and to the guys, thank you coz kayo lagi ko kasama ngayon. thank you for bearing with my laziness and my kaartehan. you know what? i just realized.. even if you treat me as literally one of the boys most of the time, you still treat me as a princess. naks!

Racho Family - i'm spending more time with you my immediate family now. and i really thank God for giving me you guys as my family. kahit ganyan si Papa, buti na lang Racho siya. hahaha. i'm really proud to be a Racho. and i hope we'll have our reunion again on october. balik tayo tamblot ha!

16th Ave. Peeps - i miss you guys. haaay... sa ibang lugar na 16th ave. nyo ngayon eh. i hope we'll have a reunion also. i just miss my childhood days. and toni (naks!), nakita ko si mark. yun lang. nakita ko lang. hahaha :)

God - i really miss You. i talk to You every morning, night, every chance i get, but still i miss You. and i think You know what i mean. thank You so much Lord coz even if i'm being too demanding, You still are there for me. and a lot of people has judged me on what my relatioship with you is, but You don't care. You still love me. thank You. and thank You for giving me these people. the people i've mentioned above. coz they really make my life worth living.and Lord, i just miss You. i want to spend quality time again in the Blessed Sacrament, but until now, i haven't done it yet. i am sorry. i love You Lord.