Thursday, July 01, 2004

church and faith

Was watching The Practice kanina. And there had been a case where a guy was molested by a priest when he was 18. Well, yung two leads, Bobby and Eugene, nagkaasaran. Coz Bobby is somewhat against the case, and si Eugene he really wanted it. Until Eugene told Bobby what his problem is, it’s because he’s too Catholic. He can’t accept the fact that there are priests out there who do molest innocent youth. And he wants Bobby to get mad as he is to the priests, and stop giving contributions to the church and just leave. Bobby, then talked to one of the other lawyers also who is too catholic. He asked if di ba sya naiilang sa mga accusations sa priests and stuff. Sbe nung other lawyer, sometimes he can’t sleep nga and he pictures God with a human image, he sometimes pictures God as a priest. Syempre naman, coz parang the priest is the closest to God. But I can’t agree more with what he said when asked if he considered leaving the church. He said, the Church is the faith that you and me have.
Mejo can relate kse ako. I have considered once also of changing religions coz of priests. Well, hindi naman ako na-molest, pero nainis ako sa priest. Na parang they are God’s instrument, God is using them to show His love for us. Pero why are they so mean, why are they so judgmental, tapos yung mga nane-news pa, and etc. etc. Basta nainis lang ako sa isang homily ng priest. So, the next day I texted some BLD Youth for lunch para madiscuss toh. Sobrang confused tlga ako that moment, and mejo decided, but I want to have an opinion of others pa rin before I really do decide. Kaya khet nagyaya yung bago kong boss non na maglunch, I declined and meet with the Youth. Lakas din ng loob ko mag-hindi sa boss noh? Hehe. Anyway, buti na lang I talked to Ate Jopay and Ate Jopay told me that if ever ba I’ll leave and find another I think the leaders there would be perfect. As always been said there’s no perfect community. I know there would be no perfect leaders, pero I was still contemplating about it pa din. I still heard Mass later that afternoon, and asked God kung ano ba tlga. I mean I believe that the Catholics and other religions believe in the same God. So, sbe ko sa Kanya, ano ba mawawala saken? So what happened? Why am I still Roman Catholic? Because God told me to just have faith in him. That the Church still commits mistake coz it’s still composed of humans. And diba nga sbe sa LSS, we are weak and bound to sin? Pero how do we sin ba? It’s because of freewill. Priests also have freewill, and other religious people. They are human and still make mistakes. Kaya nga we are made e. Coz if there are others who make mistakes, we are there to correct it or show others that not all are like them and there are still others who are good. And we should just have faith.
After watching the show, I’ve realized that my faith is stronger than before. Coz I think that if I have watched it before, I’ll again think twice of my religion. Baka magpachange na din ako. Pero kanina, khet na siguro mejo Catholicism didn’t win over, I still believe in the Church that I belong to. Maybe that’s what over ten years of studying in a Catholic school can do to you. :)