20 Random Facts

Was tagged by Duke. so here goes..

" 20 random facts about me then tag the same amount of people
as minutes it takes you to write the facts "

1. I am a fast reader, if I just concentrate on reading a book, I can finish a novel in a day.
2. I really am a fast-paced person coz even in eating, I am always the first one to finish.
3. I wanted to shave my hair back in college, just like Demi Moore in GI Jane.
4. It is my dream to be featured, even just my picture, on the Lifestyle section of newpapers or magazines.
5. I wanted to take voice lessons, not to improve my voice but to have a recital.. in other words, I wanted to have a concert.
6. It is hard for me to say NO to people. Soemtimes, even if it's my disadvantage, I still yes.
7. In connection, I like to please others.
8. I hate cockroaches.. As in! even just the mere sight of them in television..
9. My life verse is Mark 11:24, ever since highschool and it all started with not having a report. hehe
10. I love to host/plan parties.
11. Even with my body size, I still feel I am sexy and pretty. Hehe.
12. I am not keen on the salary that I get from my job, what I look at is I'm happy with my work, with what I am doing and the people around me.
13. I can sleep easily. Just give me a pillow or something to rest my head on, I can sleep just right there and then even if there is a party going on.
14. I laugh at people who is not good with their grammar or sometimes even the pronunciation. Yabang ko noh? I laugh at them when I am a confessed barok.
15. If am going to live in the province, it is definitely Cebu. Honestly, I can see myself living there.
16. I am a brand-conscious person. I always buy on a budget. As in really on a budget but most of the time, I buy from named stores.
17. I hate going to sales. I hate the crowd. That's why I'd rather buy an expensive item than makisiksik sa crowd.
18. I wake up early in the morning just to read my Bible and pray then go back to sleep.
19. I love to take on challenges. I challenge myself most of the time. But sad to say, I easily give up.
20. I am a sensitive type of person. Siguro paranoid. Coz I easily get the feeling that I am not liked.

Whew! I don't know hotw long it took me. Bacause I was called on by my unit head. Office stuff. Hehe. But I'll pass this to those who I know the blog addresses.

1. Kim - the new Ma'am Kim
2. Julie - the new mom in Singapore
3. Tres Maras - the beautiful products of Tito Dante and Tita Annie
4. Bart - one who appreciates life now more than we do
5. Denz - Ms. Grimace

WISH LIST

BDAY ko na! hehehe. and Christmas is also around the corner. i read my highschool classmate's friendster blog and she had there a wishlist. since it's my bday already, i have decided to make my own wishlist. it does not necessarily mean it is really realistic, but what the heck?! it's my wishlist. hehe.

1. Surprise Party for my bday - this is really not possible. i have plans on my own for my bday and also it would not be a surprise from the heart coz you've read it here already. hehe. i have just thought of this because an officemate had a surprise party for her bf. wala lang :)
2. Laptop - preferrably a MAC. i remember when i was still in college or highschool, i said to myself or anyone who cares to listen. the first major thing that am gonna buy with my salary is a laptop. i tried saving, but still no laptop. have spent it somewhere else. sad..
3. Trip around the World - that's for dreaming big. but Singapore is fine with me as of the moment. why singapore? because i can visit a lot of friends there now. also, i wanna see the night safari! california would also be fine. 3 of my college barkada are there having the time of their lives and i could also visit my relatives there.
4. Try the Spa in Nature Spa and Sampaguita Gardens - Nature Spa is like a haven in Tagaytay. i don't call myself a spa addict but somehow loves to have a body scrub once in a while. i definitely would love to try it our. sampaguita gardens is in new washington, aklan. have been there but to visit the precious moments place and not the spa for lack of budget. hehe. ace told me they have nice spa there and i believe they really have. i guess somehow it is like nature spa. what i like about these two are they are far from the hustles of the city. it would be totally a relaxing mode for me.
   
5. Go to Batanes - yup, until now i still want to visit batanes. even if they have electricity and internet already, still i want to visit the place. it's like not part of the philippines already kse. hehe.
6. Have a Vacation in Amanpulo- yupyup. Amanpulo. haay... when will that happen kaya? even it's in the Philippines it is like Europe for me because of the cost of going and staying there.
   
7. Visit Bora Bora - Bora Bora, a new discovered place to visit. it's in the Tahiti. and at first i received an email where the hotel has a glass floor and you can see the fish swimming below. wanted to know where it is and visit. saw the beach in arirang channel and then i researched about Bora Bora.. that's the place i'm looking for. it was really soooo nice. try to google Bora Bora and their hotels. nice hotels.

well, it's pretty much on travelling. i just love to travel and discover new places. well, one out of these five coming true would not be bad. there's nothing bad in dreaming and as my favorite Disney song goes...

"..no matter how hard your heart is breaking, if you'll keep on believing. the dream that you wish will come true.."

When I Die...

i just came from a wake of my officemate's mom. it reminded me of my lola's wake and jopay's entry on her blog on what she wants when she dies. now, i'm going to share what i want when i die..

until i die, i am still conceited. i want my pictures to be posted all around the funeral place or wherever my remains will be. ala rico yan ba. so friends, lend some of my pictures to my family when i die ha.. para marami sila ipost. i don't care if i look good or not, basta puro pictures ko nakakalat. hehe. i'll borrow an idea of ate jopay. just like her, i want to have a eulogy from friends everyday. my family's part would be on the day of my internment. there'll be a representative from econsoc, bld, highschool friends, childhood friends, etc.. i don't want my wake to be for one day only, so my friends will have a chance to visit me. and if you're planning to give me/my family a mass card, cash na lang. hehe. because my family would need it more. attend a mass and offer it for me na lang. and i'm sure i'm in your prayers. just being practical. hehe. lastly, i want to be cremated. that's one thing that should really be followed. why? ayoko ipisin! but i know it's still gonna be a long time before it happens. a lot will still happen in my life :)

Prompted by the Spirit

i was asked to led the Youth Prayer Meeting yesterday. the Gospel for today is about paying taxes to Caesar. i have to ask pa what it means so i can understand the Gospel and know my theme. well, my theme was "Give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar, and to God what belongs to God." Mt.22:21 anyway, it made me realize that the topic is for me.. how much i have given to God, and how much i should give to Him.

anyway, i have finished my line-up and prayer but honestly, was not satisfied. ewan.. basta parang may kulang that i can't pinpoint. kaya sobrang kabado ako until saturday morning. when i read the readings for yesterday, i was comforted by the words.. "For the Holy Spirit will teach you at that time all that you have to say." Lk 12:12

prayer meeting na.. we had it in the Secretariat coz we will also have BBS. walang podium, so walang patungan ang notes/kodigo ko. one thing about me is i'm full of pride or mayabang. nahihiya ako magdala ng paper sa harap that would be obvious. so, lahat impromptu. yung ibang songs ko, i haven't memorized the lines, di ako makapag-prompt, wala pa naman projector. since, wala akong notes.. everything was made right then and there, just keeping in mind my line-up of songs. i just surrendered myself totally to God. and i just made the worship my personal prayer to Him.. honestly, i don not know how it had been for those who were there, but for me it was truly a blessed worship. sobrang feel ko yung worship yesterday. sa sobrang feel ko, i even sang sa mic. dati kse pag songs na, i just prompt the lines or cover the mic. yesterday, talagang kumanta pa ako. and even when i prayed in tongues. basta sobrang nacoconscious kse ako when i pray in tongues, but yesterday, i totally gave my all to God. i just returned to the Heart of Worship :)
Lk12:12

Survey Says...

Ayan Ate Jopay, para matuwa ka.. and for you guys to know me better...

01. Your Name? ~ Kristine Marie M. Racho
02. Hobbies? ~ Blogging(!), sleeping, reading, GYM! (hahaha), eating, travelling and trying out new restos
03. Gender? ~ Female
04. School? ~ UPLB
05. Height? ~ 5'3"
06. Zodiac Sign? ~ Scorpio
~~ Okay... Where did #7 go?!?
08. Address? ~ West Ave.
09. Email Address? :)
10. Hair? ~ Long, Down & beginning to curl again
11. Eye Colour? ~Black
12. Hair Colour? ~ Naturally Black
13. Right or Left Handed? ~ for writing, left.. but for other tasks, right
14. Status? ~ Single
15. Siblings? ~ 1 Younger sis and 1 Youngest bro. labo!!
16. Last 4 Digits of your Mobile Number? ~ 8301
17. When's your Birthday? ~ Nov. 8 (Jopay, take note)
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*Have you...*
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~~ Uhh... Where's #18-#20?!?
21. Tried smoking? ~ Nope
22. Drink alcohol? ~ Occassionally. i prefer cocktails and hard drinks
23. Been hurt emotionally? ~ Of course.
24. Kept a secret from anyone? ~ Of course.
25. Been on stage? ~ Yep yep. whenever i receive my diploma. hehe

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*Favourites*
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26. Color? ~ Pastel Colors
27. Food? ~ Japanese, American, Italian, PIZZA and CHIPS!
~~ Once again, another number is missing! Oh well...--comments by Elaine
29. Number? ~ 8
30. Cartoons? ~ ginger, walt disney princess movies
~~ What the?!? Can't the Author of this Survey count?--comments by Elaine
32. Song? ~ songs by hillsongs, parokya ni edgar, mymo, etc..
33. Movie? ~ 50 First Dates, I Am Sam, Life is Beautiful, etc. etc
34. Subject? ~ Math 36 - Calculus. (no joke, khet take 2)
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*Right Now*
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~~ Jeeze, Louise! Another number gone!-- comments by Elaine
36. Wearing? ~ black cardigan, white sando, black slacks, black shoes
37. Hairstyle? ~ Long, Down
38. Looking At? ~ The screen of the pc that's displaying my bloxster "edit entry" page
39. Thinking Of? ~ answers
40. Listening To? ~ my fingers tapping the keyboard, and the silence in the whole floor

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*Do You Believe In...*
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41. Love? ~ Yes
42. Faith? ~ Yes.
43. Yourself? ~ Yes.
44. Ghosts? ~ not really, but i'm a coward. hehe
45. Angels? ~ Yes.

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*In The Last 24 Hrs...*
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46. Worn Jeans? ~ Yep
47. Cleaned Your Room? ~ nope
48. Cried? ~ Nope.
49. Met Someone New? ~ Yup. some of ian's friends
50. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? ~ Co-worker
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*Love Life*
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51. Do You Believe In Love? ~ Yes.
52. Have A Secret Admirer? ~ ewan..
53. Do You Wanna Get Married? ~ Yes.
54. Do You Plan On Having Kids? ~ Yes. if we can't have one, i could settle for adoption
55. How Old Do You Want To Be When You Get Married? ~ i'm turning 25.. so 27-28
56. How Old You Wanna Be When You Have Your Child? ~ After a year of marriage
57. How Many Kids Do You Want? ~ 2
58. Would You Have Kids Before Marriage? ~ Nope.
59. Do You Have A Crush? ~ right now? parang wala. wala na ata gwapo. hehe
60. What Do You Want Most In A Relationship? ~ Love and respect
61. Horror or Action? ~ Action.
62. Kiss or Hug? ~ Hug
63. Summer or Winter? ~ Summer.
64. Sunny or Rainy? ~ Sunny
65. Chocolate or Vanilla? ~ Chocolate
66. Hanging Out or Chillin'? ~ Hanging Out
67. Music or TV? ~ TV
68. Hamburger or Pizza? ~ Pizza!! sobrang fave
69. Smile or Laughing? ~ Smile coz i can do it anytime. if i just laugh out of the blue, people will think there's something wrong
70. Sleeping or Eating? ~ Sleeping!
71. McDonald's or KFC? ~ Mcdo!
72. Silver or Gold? ~ White Gold
73. Sunset or Sunrise? ~ Sunset
74. On The Phone or In Person? ~ In Person.
75. Diamonds or Pearls? ~ Diamonds.
76. Adidas or Puma? ~ Nike. (I agree with you, Elaine and Jopay)
77. Football or Golf? ~ Football. i get bored with golf
78. Local or International Artist? ~ Either-Or
79. Sneakers or Boots? ~ Sneakers.
80. Jack Daniels or Chivas Regal? ~ ....?
81. Dunhill or Marlboro? ~ None.
82. Clubbing or Live Music? ~ Live Music.
83. Johnny Depp or Brad Pitt? ~ Johnny Depp, a really great actor
84. Angelina Jolie or Kate Hudson? ~ Angelina Jolie
85. Epic or Romantic Comedy? ~ Romantic Comedy.
86. Sexy/Naughty or Kind/Plain? ~ Kind but can be Naughty (Agree!)
87. BMW or Mercedes? ~ bmw
88. Hiphop or Pop? ~ Pop.
89. Montreal or Toronto? ~ Montreal
90. Long Haired or Bald? ~ Bald.
91. Ice Cream or Candies? ~ Ice Cream.
92. Beach or Mountain? ~ Beach.
93. Pepsi or Coke? ~ Coke.
94. DVD or Cinema? ~ Cinema
95. Nokia or Ericsson? ~ Am using Ericson now
96. 311 or Hoobastank? ~ ...?
97. Asia or America? ~ Asia
98. Tattoo or Piercing? ~ Ear Piercing
99. American Idol or Canadian Idol? ~ American Idol
100. Asking or Answering? ~ Asking, definitely :)

TAG! You're It! Go ahead and answer the Survey!

Blog Addicts

i started my blog last year when i still have no job and was really unsuccessful with my baking experiments. got the idea from my friend Petrina. with nothing else to do, i wrote my first entry. i don't pay much attention to my blog just updating it once in a while and also, i don't tell my friends about it coz am somehow embarrassed with my writings. i've got no talent in it kse. but then, friendster blog became a fad. and my sis, Kim, asked in our egroups if anyone has a blog, so i told her bout my blog. then a week after, i talked to Jopay and she was so excited about blogging. so i visited her blog and saw the blogs of my other friends.

i now believe that blogging is fun. not only for writing your thoughts but also reading your friends'. like for example, Duke's. after a long time of no communication, i am somehow updated again with her life. i learned about Elaine's accident through her blog. and realized that Kuya Marvin is poetic.

through blog, i have learned and realized a lot. now i see the beauty of blog, and honestly i am getting addicted to it also. opening my blog and my friends' when i have the time :)

UAAP

CONGRATS!
ay mali! FEU won pala. hehe.

that's a text message i sent to some of my friends from la salle after a great game versus feu. i know they're affected somehow. my siblings are. hehe. to my friends, don't get mad at me, okay? i sympathize with you. i may not have studied in dlsu, but it's close to my heart, promise! anyway, there's still next year and i guess the title is not really for you. it was a great game, especially after yeo tried to revive the ball after tripping and all. that's sportsmanship. till next year friends

Sorry Ace

Pero sino nga ba si Ace? Si Ace ang parte ng aking nakaraan, parte pa rin ng aking kasalukuyan ngunit bilang kaibigan na lamang. At sana parte pa rin siya ng aking kinabukusan bilang mabuting kaibigan. Malaki ang pasasalamat ko at naging bahagi siya ng aking buhay. Sa kanya ko naramdaman ang pagmamahal. Talagang minahal niya ako at kahit naman ako, minahal ko din siya hanggang ngayon, bilang mabuting kaibigan. Siya ang nag-iisang taong may tiyagang makinig sa mga kwento, reklamo at kung anu-anong kuro-kuro ko. At siya ang higit na nagtitiwala sa aking kakayahan at mga pangarap, kaya nang dahil sa kanya, maraming pangarap ko na rin ang naiksatuparan. Sa madaling salita, marami ang pinapasalamat ko sa kanya. Subalit, khet na puro kabutihan ang ginawa niya sa akin, sinaktan ko pa rin at siguro ay patuloy na sinasaktan. Minsan pala, mas makakasakit ang pagiging mabait kumpara sa pagmamalupit. Sa kabaitan mo, nabibigyan mo siya ng maling pag-asa.

Bakit ko ba sinusulat ang lahat ng ito? Sa kadahilanan na gusto ko humingi ng paumanhin kay Ace sa lahat ng masamang nagawa ko. Gusto ko rin ipakita sa lahat na talagang nagpapasalamat ako at naging bahagi siya ng buhay ko. Maaring hindi niya mabasa ito, pero ayos lang. Dahil pag mabasa niya ito, iba ang isipin niya. Baka isipin lang niya na ginagawa ko ito nang hindi talaga bukal sa aking kalooban, at nagpapakitang tao lang sa kanya. Kaya mas mabuti na sigurong hindi niya ito mabasa. Sana lang maramdaman niya talagang ako ay totoo sa pagpapaumanhin at pagpapasalamat. At alam ko na itong entry na ito na nakalaan lang sa kanya ay hindi pa sapat sa lahat nang nagawa niya para sa akin...

Blessed with Friends

I was suppose to go to Camiguin last weekend but due to some changes in the schedule, it didn't push through. I am still tahnkful though that it was cancelled coz my weekend still had been a fun, enjoyable and blessed weekend. I got to spend it with Econsoc and BLD friends, two sets of friends that had been closed to my heart and have molded me.

After a long time, since July, I went back to LB last Friday. Saw some brods and sisses again like Bart, Mars, Chopol, Jeff, Tina, Jason, RY, Primo, Fheby, Patrick, Karlo, Aqui, Ainah and Cindy. Hope I didn't forget anyone. It was really great to see them. How they had been a blessing last weekend, aside from the fact that they made me enjoy my weekend, here are other reasons:

..nagpasingit sa line sa bus
..i was still welcome khet na sobrang younger batches sila
..saw a real example of how you could not see that your "true" love is just infront of you when you are busy chasing the wrong guy
..realized how much loved i am by them when after a long time of not going out, would have lunch out for me. khet pinag-antay ako ng matagal. bitch tlga. haha
..even if i am out of touch with LB and the people, i can still be updated. labo!
..khet sobrang kinukupal ako, they care for me still

at marami pang iba. i am really glad i had been part of the Econsoc family. and it made me realize how old i am. i was born in the year 1980, and ang kagimik ko last friday has an age range that was born in the year 1984 to 1987!!! OMG! i guess that just means that i am young looking. hehe.

What i hate when i go to los baños is going back to manila. Sobrang nakakatamad for the place is relaxing khet mainit, and also the people khet na kupal. Was supposed to meet my BLD friends in makati at 7pm, finally i left LB by 6:30 pm. Not only did the heat made me lag behind. At 3 in the afternoon, Ainah and i went around the UP campus. So after the tour and back to Kitanlad, what do you expect but my smell to be amoy-araw. It made me hesistate to leave coz am sure my BLD friends smell fresh. But i don't want to miss the opportunity to be with them again, so amoy-pawis and all, i went back to Manila.

I'm thankful i did attend the overnight at Jopay's. Saw Beng once again. Got to warn Jaz. Got to know Ate Giselle more, looks can be deceiving. hahaha. Enjoyed Jopay's cooking. Got to spend time with Ate Anna. Got to talk to Tatee in a deeper way. Exept for Jopay and Beng, it was my first time to have bonded with these girls. And i was blessed with their sharings. Though some shared their probles, it was still a blessing to me for i learned a lot of things. Like for example..

..your dream guy or ideal man can really be a reality
..God does not work in a hurried pace
..i am blessed with my family even if we are not perfect
..BLD community is God's gift to me
..though i don't/didn't feel it, the BLD people loves and cares for me (yuck! naiiyak ako)

I remembered tuloy when I was asked last Saturday what is/are my blessing/s and i said being there had been a really big blessing. Then i was crying and Ate Anna and Tatee were surprised why i was crying. I was also surprised myself for I thought I'm already healed coz I've shared it already during our last SE Pastoral and in my sharings, but I still cried. I guess, the tears really need to pour for me to be totally healed from the hurt. But last weekend made me appreciate the BLD Community more. And I realized tat hurt as i had been, there are still those I can consider as my true friends.

For my friends, especially those whom I got to spend the weekend with, thank you. I love you guys! :)

Bentosa Adventure

just wanna share that my dad cares for me pa pala somehow. hehe. as i've mentioned in my spa review, i had bentosa recently, actually just last friday. so saturday, i want to take a bath but was advised not to because i just had a massage the previous night. i asked our househelps if i can't really take a bath and showed them my back which is full of bentosa marks. they recognized it instantly, it's a popular thing pala in the province. just a common massage. anyway, my dad was sitting beside me. he literally panicked. he pulled my shirt to see a better view of my back and was really panicky when he told me "Pumunta ka na ng derma!" i was really laughing. i know napahiya sya, then he said it might be a ringworm or something, and i should go to the derma. then i explained it to him that i just had bentosa and explained what it is. sobrang funny lang coz our househelps didn't react, and he reacted so panicky. but in all honesty, i was touched. naks pa! concerned ka pa rin pala saken. ;p

SPA Reviews

if you've read my previous entries, you'll read that i love to try out new restos. well, now it was somehow modified. now, i also want to try out SPAs in the metro. not only in the metro but anywhere else. hehe. well, so far i have tried four and in order: Suriya in Glorietta 3, Spa Central in Iloilo, Moorea in Tomas Morato, and the most recent, Sanctuario in Malate. For Suriya and Spa Central, I had body scrubs. While in Moorea and Sancturaio, body massage, in Sanctuario, particularly Bentosa.

First, the Suriya in Glorietta 3. It was really refreshing and relaxing. After the scrub, I was wrapped in a banana leaf and was left for 20 minutes to relax. Afterwards, a delicious hot tea. Delicious coz i don;t drink hot tea. But i really liked their tea. Sayang lang di ko naubos. I was hot kaya and i wanna go home already coz it's late na. The receptionist was not that friendly. we had a reservation at 9pm. Arrived a little before 9:10 and we can't be accommodated na daw. Pinaglaban tlaga namin ang aming slot, so pnagbigyan kme. But the one who gave me the body scrub was really nice. Since it was my first time for a body scrub, i was shy pa. Even if the procedure makes me sleepy, I would still talk to the girl kse kawawa naman and hiya nga akoÜ Anyway, after that, my skin was really soft and smooth. And i had a nice goodnight sleep.

When I went to Boracay recently, afterwards, we went to New Washington in Aklan to see the Precious Moments place there. They also have a spa there and ace told me it was really great. Next time we'll try it. hehehe. Anyway, after New Washington, straight to Iloilo. So, i really felt dirty and harrass. So, arriving in Iloilo, straight to the Spa Central. Compared to Suriya, i like Suriya better. The room is not private. They just have cloths to sparate the rooms, just like in Moorea. The underwear is not disposable. Sa suriya kse and Moorea they have this disposable undies kaya you feel safe to use them. Sorry, it's a big deal for me. But what i like for these three Spas (Suriya, Spa Central and Moorea) it's really a haven. They will let you relax. Sa Moorea, I was given extra sleeping time pa. Hehe. In Spa Central, it's not really first class, totally cheap kaya ang services. My Iloilo officemates also told me that there are better spas there. But i like their service. And after that long day, it was really refreshing afterwards. I felt really clean, and in fairness, their scrub smelled good.

Now, Sanctuario. I've first heard about it in Jessica Soho Reports and was really amazed with the Bentosa. I'd like to try it especially since it was said to remove the "lamig" in your back, and Gwyneth Paltrow is in it, why won't I give it a try. I hate massages. It only gives me more body aches afterwards, so I daid i'll just try Bentosa since they're just gonna put hot glasses in my back and i'll be okay. Well, arriving in Sanctuarion, it's like Sanctuario coz it's like a nature spa. But not for long. The ladies' dreassing room is in the second floor and the bath place is in the ground floor, passing the salon and restaurant. Ladies are to wear opnly sarong. Second, the sauna, actually it's like a jacuzzi, and the pool is for public use. I mean the sauna in Suriya is also for public use but only for girls. In Sanctuario, you are to share it with guys also. Sorry but i was not to go boy-hunting but to relax. Then they have this herbal bath. The water was really hot! As in! Parang for the first five minutes we were trying to cool it down first before we can truly relax. Then Bentosa time! First, my back was massaged. Okay, then the glasses were placed. It was somehow painful. My massuer loves to put pil on her hands. And when she massages me, it is really painful coz it was so madulas and i can feel it in my bones. Honest! Sabi nga nya, malambot balat ko.. Kaya siguro. I didn't feel the glasses removed but I still feel backache, in other words parang may lamig pa. She massaged me still and then it was done. She made me stand and gave me the tip envelope. Haay.. no time to sleep. Honestly, i did not feel relaxed. Kaya I am sorry, for the four spas, i like Sanctuario the least. I don't think i'll return there. For the other three, i might return.

working relations

Last Monday night, I met my former boss in P&G, Mam Sally. We had dinner at around 10:30 in the evening. Well, I came from the Singles Prayer Meeting thus the late dinner. Anyway, it was fun. We did some catching up. She's based in Singapore already and was just here for a week. Talking to her made me realize how God loves me and how blessed I am. Inspite of being connected with P&G for only 8 months, I have gained lots of friends. That even if I already work in QC, I still meet them once in a while. And it made me sad also because though for in my first work I lasted for a year and thought gained friends, there had been no communication from them anymore. As they said..sometimes we just meet some people for a reason and purpose.. and I guess our purpose for each other has been fulfilled already. Hope we will meet again someday coz am really glad I met them :)

i'm not mataray!!

i've always seen myself as a smiling person. even if problems arises, i just smile. and if people pisses me off, i just cry. but me being mataray?! hmmm... i don't know. when i look at my pic here, parang di bagay saken..

i remember when i was still in college and it's reporting time for our org. the applicants/amuyong would include me at the bottom of their list to be reported at. kse para daw akong mataray. and when one brave sould approaches me and would learn about how kind (ahem) i am, the whole batch would like to report to me now. i really can;t understand how they can see me as mataray. especially when what i love to do is SMILE :)

God loves me talaga!

wow! it's been a year already since my last entry here. a lot has happened in my life between those intervals. i'll just talk about some of the highlights for this year. mostly serving the Lord. first is the SE37 sponsorship. i really gave my all to that sponsorship, not sleeping for 48 hours and really doing everything i can for its success. second, sharing my life story last LSS24, just last april also. 1st week and last week of april is really for the Lord. after my sharing, i was told that I can ask God for anything. since malakas daw ako sa kanya coz i shared my life plus i served nung sponsorship. i really didn't ask God for anything. but honestly, i was expecting for blessings to pour into my life. however, i felt that it's not blessings that came into my life and my family but problems. especially when my lola was taken to the hospital. that was may 2, just a week after my sharing. since then until now, she is still comatosed. we didn't expect that she will last this long. we were given just a week or two na lang by the doctors, but now it's already a month and looks like she is still continues fighting. but this placed a dilemma to us especially my mom coz she is the one paying. our bill has reached almost 200 thousand pesos already. i wanna help my mom, but i don't know how.

our office had a raffle. prizes ranged from 10,000pesos to 500,000pesos. i'm not lucky with raffles so i am not expecting to gain anything from it. bt i prayed to God that i hope whoever will win really needed the money. parang nakakatampo kung mayaman ang manalo then ako wala na sobrang nangangailangan. siguro nakulitan saken si God. He let my sister win the 3rd prize. it was really a blessing from God. also i was touched with my officemates, particularly those coming from our department. coz they were really happy for me. they did not see it as luck but as a blessing. i know they are praying for my lola and my family, and i felt that the raffle was part of His answer to their prayers. i asked why was it my sister who won and not other family members. this was easily answered, because my sister has already plans for the money. and the good thing is she is really going to share it to others. those who really needed it. the raffle had really been a blessing to us. i really felt God's love during that time. just like what emmans said when he won a phone in a raffle, just pray and have an expectant faith.
THANK YOU LORD!!!

church and faith

Was watching The Practice kanina. And there had been a case where a guy was molested by a priest when he was 18. Well, yung two leads, Bobby and Eugene, nagkaasaran. Coz Bobby is somewhat against the case, and si Eugene he really wanted it. Until Eugene told Bobby what his problem is, it’s because he’s too Catholic. He can’t accept the fact that there are priests out there who do molest innocent youth. And he wants Bobby to get mad as he is to the priests, and stop giving contributions to the church and just leave. Bobby, then talked to one of the other lawyers also who is too catholic. He asked if di ba sya naiilang sa mga accusations sa priests and stuff. Sbe nung other lawyer, sometimes he can’t sleep nga and he pictures God with a human image, he sometimes pictures God as a priest. Syempre naman, coz parang the priest is the closest to God. But I can’t agree more with what he said when asked if he considered leaving the church. He said, the Church is the faith that you and me have.
Mejo can relate kse ako. I have considered once also of changing religions coz of priests. Well, hindi naman ako na-molest, pero nainis ako sa priest. Na parang they are God’s instrument, God is using them to show His love for us. Pero why are they so mean, why are they so judgmental, tapos yung mga nane-news pa, and etc. etc. Basta nainis lang ako sa isang homily ng priest. So, the next day I texted some BLD Youth for lunch para madiscuss toh. Sobrang confused tlga ako that moment, and mejo decided, but I want to have an opinion of others pa rin before I really do decide. Kaya khet nagyaya yung bago kong boss non na maglunch, I declined and meet with the Youth. Lakas din ng loob ko mag-hindi sa boss noh? Hehe. Anyway, buti na lang I talked to Ate Jopay and Ate Jopay told me that if ever ba I’ll leave and find another religion..do I think the leaders there would be perfect. As always been said there’s no perfect community. I know there would be no perfect leaders, pero I was still contemplating about it pa din. I still heard Mass later that afternoon, and asked God kung ano ba tlga. I mean I believe that the Catholics and other religions believe in the same God. So, sbe ko sa Kanya, ano ba mawawala saken? So what happened? Why am I still Roman Catholic? Because God told me to just have faith in him. That the Church still commits mistake coz it’s still composed of humans. And diba nga sbe sa LSS, we are weak and bound to sin? Pero how do we sin ba? It’s because of freewill. Priests also have freewill, and other religious people. They are human and still make mistakes. Kaya nga we are made e. Coz if there are others who make mistakes, we are there to correct it or show others that not all are like them and there are still others who are good. And we should just have faith.
After watching the show, I’ve realized that my faith is stronger than before. Coz I think that if I have watched it before, I’ll again think twice of my religion. Baka magpachange na din ako. Pero kanina, khet na siguro mejo Catholicism didn’t win over, I still believe in the Church that I belong to. Maybe that’s what over ten years of studying in a Catholic school can do to you. :)

meeeh

it's been over a month already since i last posted here. well, what's new with me? nothing really. still a bum.. realizing my dreams with chocolates.. and trying to get to as much places as possible why i still have no work.

I have realized that looking for a job can be compared to looking for a partner in life.. remember when they compare love to waiting for the rught bus? Well, i believe that finding the right job for you is like that also. Before, if a job would come my way, the first job that would arrive, I would grab. But now, a lot of job offers I forego. Why am I very choosy now? Well, it's because if I'll work now, I want to stay there for a long time already. I would want to grow old there and hopefully to be fulfilled and happy with what am doing. Why? What do I like? I do not know. That's what I want to find out also. God, please help and guide me...

Opposite of Love

I was watching a Filipino telenovela the other night. And a line really struck me. “The opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference.” Well, I guess it is really true for me. Coz even if you say that you totally hate this person, but always pays attention to him and thinks often about him, then you still love the person. But if you say you love a person but you’re indifferent to him and becoming insensitive to his feelings, then think again if you still really love that person. And don’t people get more hurt if the one they care about is indifferent to them?

Am I that bad already? I had been to two retreats already, and it’s not yet the middle of the year. I hope not. My guess is maybe God is answering my prayers through these retreats. And it is true. My prayers were answered except for one. Does that mean I’ll be attending another retreat again before the end of the year?!?!

This leads me to another topic. Why do I hurt someone I love so much and someone who loves me? With regards to my family, I have answered that question already. But with regards to a special friend… a special relationship, I am still reflecting on it. Maybe I am bad after all. I had been selfish. I still can’t understand how can I hurt someone who have only shown me love. Can someone help me understand??

I just came back from visiting provinces in Visayas and Mindanao. Don't ask me about the tourist spots there for I did not have any opportunity to visit those places. But I enjoyed my stay in the provinces I have visited. Also, at last I have reached Mindanao. And been to Camiguin. But just left me bad memories. The people there are really warm and hospitable except for some. But never got to enjoy the sites I dreamed of visiting coz I had an accident just before I get to go. Sad.. Well, all I got in Camiguin are accidents and scars. I hope next time I visited that place, I'll fully enjoy it. Next stop.. Batanes (i hope soon..) :)