i'm not mataray!!

i've always seen myself as a smiling person. even if problems arises, i just smile. and if people pisses me off, i just cry. but me being mataray?! hmmm... i don't know. when i look at my pic here, parang di bagay saken..

i remember when i was still in college and it's reporting time for our org. the applicants/amuyong would include me at the bottom of their list to be reported at. kse para daw akong mataray. and when one brave sould approaches me and would learn about how kind (ahem) i am, the whole batch would like to report to me now. i really can;t understand how they can see me as mataray. especially when what i love to do is SMILE :)