Am I that bad already? I had been to two retreats already, and it’s not yet the middle of the year. I hope not. My guess is maybe God is answering my prayers through these retreats. And it is true. My prayers were answered except for one. Does that mean I’ll be attending another retreat again before the end of the year?!?!

This leads me to another topic. Why do I hurt someone I love so much and someone who loves me? With regards to my family, I have answered that question already. But with regards to a special friend… a special relationship, I am still reflecting on it. Maybe I am bad after all. I had been selfish. I still can’t understand how can I hurt someone who have only shown me love. Can someone help me understand??