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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Sorry Ace

Pero sino nga ba si Ace? Si Ace ang parte ng aking nakaraan, parte pa rin ng aking kasalukuyan ngunit bilang kaibigan na lamang. At sana parte pa rin siya ng aking kinabukusan bilang mabuting kaibigan. Malaki ang pasasalamat ko at naging bahagi siya ng aking buhay. Sa kanya ko naramdaman ang pagmamahal. Talagang minahal niya ako at kahit naman ako, minahal ko din siya hanggang ngayon, bilang mabuting kaibigan. Siya ang nag-iisang taong may tiyagang makinig sa mga kwento, reklamo at kung anu-anong kuro-kuro ko. At siya ang higit na nagtitiwala sa aking kakayahan at mga pangarap, kaya nang dahil sa kanya, maraming pangarap ko na rin ang naiksatuparan. Sa madaling salita, marami ang pinapasalamat ko sa kanya. Subalit, khet na puro kabutihan ang ginawa niya sa akin, sinaktan ko pa rin at siguro ay patuloy na sinasaktan. Minsan pala, mas makakasakit ang pagiging mabait kumpara sa pagmamalupit. Sa kabaitan mo, nabibigyan mo siya ng maling pag-asa.

Bakit ko ba sinusulat ang lahat ng ito? Sa kadahilanan na gusto ko humingi ng paumanhin kay Ace sa lahat ng masamang nagawa ko. Gusto ko rin ipakita sa lahat na talagang nagpapasalamat ako at naging bahagi siya ng buhay ko. Maaring hindi niya mabasa ito, pero ayos lang. Dahil pag mabasa niya ito, iba ang isipin niya. Baka isipin lang niya na ginagawa ko ito nang hindi talaga bukal sa aking kalooban, at nagpapakitang tao lang sa kanya. Kaya mas mabuti na sigurong hindi niya ito mabasa. Sana lang maramdaman niya talagang ako ay totoo sa pagpapaumanhin at pagpapasalamat. At alam ko na itong entry na ito na nakalaan lang sa kanya ay hindi pa sapat sa lahat nang nagawa niya para sa akin...

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

WHOA. I guess I was surprised to see Ace's name here.. coz like u said, Ace's part of the past na. Anyway, I was both moved and saddened by ur post. Wala lng.. love is sad tlga when it's over for one and it's not for the other. I've seen how happy u guys were beore but I also know ur reasons for ending that relationship. I'm proud of all the decisions u made rumie:) u've succeeded in where most people have failed- that is using their mind over their heart. Of course I'm talking about something that happened na. I hope u guys do stay good friends coz u 2 are super nice individuals and i feel blessed for knowing u :)

tin-tin said...

rumie!! miss you already. well, ace is still part of my present life but not anymore like as before. you may not believe it, and maybe others also but we've broken up for one year already. yes, it does not seems like t. as you said, ace is a nice person, and sobrang laking kawalan ang friendship sa kanya..
pero rumie, you've seen how we've started and i just want to thank you for the support you've given me..

ace said...

not one year but two years now... i guess some things are just not meant to be mended anymore... but as i have told you before, genuine love makes it effortless to forgive, so there is no need to rub in, semi-publicly, how sorry you are for not having enough heart to return back the love anymore ---because, that's really adding not just salt, but also tabasco sauce, to injury. hehehe. i'm okay with whatever you can offer. if you want to tell me things, i think it's more flattering if we can keep it between the two of us... you said so yourself, i am good at listening to you --hence, my hesistance to reply via weblog if only it's proper not to return the favor. after all, the world is not just about you and me .. :-)
take care always.

tin-tin said...

love means never having to say i'm sorry...

ace said...

"salt" nga pala and not "insult" was used because it causes more damaging physical pain.. lest you think i seriously misused the line, remembering that you laugh at people with problems in the english language (re: Random Facts.. i guess making your life pretty).