My Proudest Moment

if i'll be asked now what my proudest moment is, i'll tell the story of what happened to me last week...

last wednesday night, i was walking home alone. then i encountered a dog
who was barking at me and he's outside the gate! my dad taught me whan
i was still a kid, never to run and never to show fear to a dog. so i
stopped, faced the dog and shouted (in tagalog): "don't you dare come near. you'll really be sorry! i'm warning you, don't you dare!"

he (i'm assuming the doggie is a boy. hehe) then walked towards me and
went to my back and was still barking. i just continued shouting at
him, and started walking away. the dog just stayed there but continued
barking.

it's my proudest moment coz if i ran away, i'm sure he would have
bitten me. but i'm safe coz i showed him that i'm brave. hahaha. and as
i told my mom, i'm so glad the dog understands tagalog. hehehe

book review and a new baby

The Devil and Miss Prym is a book by my favorite author.. Paulo Coelho

this is a very inspiring book. a rich one. especially if you are a faithful or religious person, you'll learn a lot from this.

the book mainly focuses on temptation. if the people of a small village will commit a crime for the future (of the village). as with other paulo coelho books, there are a lot of profound messages and words. the story is actually really simple but the learnings are really great. you get to think on how is evel and goodness is here on earth. the task there is a hard one, it's murder, i'm sure a lot of people would not do that. but still, you would learn a lot from the simple conversations. you would get to reflect on how temptations attack you, and how you respond.

if you've read other Coelho books, i'm sure you'll love this one. for me, this is his best book so far.

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a good friend gave birth last Wednesday.. congrats Ate Jopay. and of course the new father is sooo proud, he posted the pictures already in his blog. welcome to the world baby polo!

and melai.. sorry ha. you're wrong. i didn't have a new post yesterday. ngayon lang. hahaha.

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hi guys!

just wanna say that i'll take a vacation first from the cyberworld. a
hiatus as they say. but not only here in the cyberworld pala, even to
everybody. will not answer emails, text messages, calls or anything. so
please bear if i don't leave a comment on your blogs or won't answer
your text messages or even your calls. vacation from the outside world
muna ako. but don't worry, i'll still visit your blogs, but i won't
leave any comments. and also i'll still forward the morning prayers and
ask for your prayer requests from time to time.

just pray for me. for what? i don't know. hehe. and thank you so much
for all your support. (naks! as if! hehe) i'll be back next month. the
reason i wrote this is for you to know na i'm just around the corner.
so you'll not get worried (well, i'm assuming that you will. hehe). so
that's all. see you in a month.

ingat tyong lahat. take care all of us

Random Facts

i was tagged by Tin, weeks ago. hehe. this is to write down 6 random facts about me..

1. I am pretty. - fact daw diba? for me this is a fact. hehehe

2. When i go to the mall, I have to buy something. - when i go home, I should be bringing one shopping bag. even if it's a food or whatever as long as i have something

3. I took up karate, swimming, guitar and aikido lessons - and i never learned anything from these classes. hehe.

4. I am brand conscious - this is hard for me to admit but it is true. when i go out, i should wear something branded. even if it;s just my top or my pants. or just my shoes. as long as there's something branded. bad noh?

5. I love to walk - i would rather walk than ride the jeepney. hehe

6. I don't ride Manila buses if i'm alone - i hate the smell and i have a traumatic experience before. hehe. because the first time i rode a bus alone, i was caught by an MMDA for jaywalking. honest, i didn't know it. coz i just followed someone. after that incident, i don't ride manila bus anymore. i just ride a bus alone if it's provincial like going to laguna.

Blogging

Before going to my main topic... I now remember what is my #10 in my No Way list. Another big no-no for me is

10. Buy an imitation – even if it’s expensive, I’ll save up to buy the original one. It would be a great embarrassment if someone will notice that you’re wearing/using an imitation. And honestly, I really feel good if I’m using an original branded item.

I was tagged by Carey on 5 things that happened to me because of blogging. Well, here’s my list on why I like to blog:

1. I’ve learned html. Not really totally learned a lot but bits and pieces, putting links, changing your font into a bold one. Stuff like that. But I cannot say I’m an expert especially after what happened to my sidebar. Thanks to iskoo, now it’s fixed again. (I still can’t believe you’ve thought of that. Hahaha)

2. My writing improved. So just imagine how it was before. Hahaha. Well, I think it improved. Some people had even comment that it did improve. Basta what I know is that I’m not good in writing, I always have low marks in my theme compositions. And I get a chance to practice my english. Aminadong barok ako. Hehehe

3. I am now getting addicted with Multiply. And through the blogs and pictures there and also in Friendster, Blogspot, Wordpress or wherever (but mostly in Multiply), I get to know my friends more. I get updated with their lives even if I don’t see them often. And I gain new friends! Also, it’s very interesting to read stories of other people. I’m not tsismosa coz I don’t tell others about your stories, I’m just curious. hehe

4. I love to travel! But due to budget constraint, I only get to some places. And it’s still a long dream for me to travel the world. But through the blogs, I get to know a lot about places and the people. Reading about unknown places there that only the locals know is really a good thing. I feel like if I get the chance to visit the place, I’ll feel at home already coz of what I read.

5. I get to analyze things too much. especially with what's happening in my life. I don't know, i believe blogging has something to do with it.

The tag says to list only 5. But I'll add another one. Daming naisip. Hahaha. And for me, this is the most important...

6. Everybody has a story to tell, the problem is not everyone is interested to hear it. I have stories to tell also and honestly sometimes I’m shy to say it because it might bore the other person. Thru blogging, I get to share my story. And it’s just up to you guys if you’ll read it or not. And it’s really touching to learn that there are some friends (that i don't expect) who really read my blog, like Kim, Ate France and Kuya Marvin. In a way it’s flattering, coz I didn’t expect it. Thanks guys. And I told you I’ll mention your names here in my blog.

So there. Now you know why I'm getting hooked to blogging. Hehehe. I won't tag anyone this time.

January Weekends

as i've written in my previous post, every weekend of my January is an out of town weekend for me. well, except for the last weekend of January. but replacement of that weekend is the last weekend of December. here are some pics for those weekends. just two pictures each. hehehe.

last week of December.. wedding of cousin Randall and Giselle in CEBU CITY!

the church picture

starbucks. rai rai ken pala. hehe in IT park

1st week of January in ROXAS CITY naman for wedding of cousin DP and Kaye...

the newlyweds on the left

a week after, it's with my second family naman.. the BLD Youth. for the YLSS Lipa#1. of course, it's in LIPA, BATANGAS

the first batch who arrived Friday night pa lang

the Youth Ministry

finally, the last out of town trip for the month. diving in DUMAGUETE CITY

ready to dive with cousin vera
the dumaguete airport. last picture before going home

now where would February take me?

Weekend Boasting and a No Way Tag

Cebu - Roxas - Batangas - Dumaguete.

Have never spent a Saturday yet at home or particularly in Manila this year. I was always out of town and the latest was in Dumaguete. As my sister told me in YM, “hambog!” (braggart/boastful). Hahaha. Talaga! hahaha. And that’s what I love about having my own blog. I can boast around and it’s okay, because it’s my own blog. You will read it or not, and I won’t even get hurt that much even if you don’t really read unlike if I see you not really listening to my stories. Hehehe.

Anyway, the story… My officemate (along with her sister) and I availed of the P99 promo of Cebu Pacific. Their original plan is Cebu for the Sinulog. Fortunately, all flights are fully booked coz if they’re going to Cebu, I won’t come along. Just been to Cebu and it was for two weeks. So suggestion was Dumaguete. And there were still lots of vacant seats. Yipee! We bought our tickets before Christmas. So when I saw my cousin Vera and her boyfriend Stephen during the weddings, I told them and somehow made plans. I told them that I want to go diving but I don’t know how. And because Stephen is a really kind-hearted and generous guy especially to Vera’s relatives, he said that he’ll give us an intro to diving FOR FREE!!!

So Jan. 19, we headed to Dumaguete. We met the scuba diver friends of Stephen and they taught us the basics of scuba diving. Actually, it was Borge who was our dive master. But his friends are really helpful, especially my diving buddy Ian. For the intro, we went as far as 15 feet. Saw lots of fish and corals! Ang ganda! But I experienced problems with my ears. I still don’t know how to equalize.

The next day, we went to Apo Island. I went first, with buddy Ian again. We went as far as 7 meters (21 feet) coz I already know how to equalize. Naks! Hehehe. Since there’s a limited number of gears only, i gave my friends a chance to dive. but I got addicted to it. So, I was really persistent that I would dive again. After lunch, Vera and the divers dived into the drop-off point. I also want to!!! But Stephen said that I can’t coz I’m still a beginner, but he promised that I can go diving after them but just at the boundary of the drop-off point. So after them, buddy Ian and I went diving again. Since we’re in the middle of the sea, they taught me how to jump off from the boat. I did not do what I usually watch from the TV/movies that they’ll turn back from the sea and tumble around. I did the Great Stride or I just step off the boat. And I did it perfectly! Hehehe. Well since my buddy was pasaway, and I already know how to equalize, he brought me to the boundary of the drop-off point and a little beyond it. So somehow, I experienced the drop off point. When I asked him afterwards how deep we went, he said 10 meters. But I know when I looked at the watched while underwater, it said 12. maybe it’s the time that I saw not the meters. Hahaha. It’s okay. 10 meters is still 30 feet! Hehehe.

Honestly, even if it was just last weekend, I already miss diving. I’m getting addicted to it. And my cousin Randall just has one response to that: “Welcome to the club!” hehehe.

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This is a long overdue tag from Duke and Wil. 10 things that I would never do. Never say never is one of my mottos, but I hope I’ll never do these talaga.

I’ll never…
1. Regret anything. – I don’t want to regret anything. I just learn from things that happen. But the closest to regret I’ve ever done I guess is resigning from my former job. hehe

2. Eat a cockroach. – hello?!?!?! I can’t even touch nor look at one

3. Have an affair with a married man. – especially after experiencing what happened to our family after my dad have an affair. No way will I destroy a family for my own sake. And it’s bad. Period.

4. Step on other people to get ahead/Ruining a person’s reputation for my own benefit. – I have to copy this Duke. And I just can’t bear that I’m better off than someone by not being fair. I just can’t. ako pa! I’m always concerned with other people’s feelings

5. Date/Have a relationship with my friend’s ex. - I don’t know. It’s just a rule for me

6. Migrate to another country. – I just don’t like to. As I said in my previous post, I would like to live in the province. I just imagine myself living in another country because I’m studying there or my job assigned me there for a certain period of time.

7. Work in a government agency. – this is a big HAHA for me. Because unbelievably, I’m working for a government agency now. I still do not have my civil service, to give me an excuse not to work for the government, yet I’m here. Haaay… hehehe

8. Work that involves finance. – In college, I failed only two subjects. And they are both Math subjects (Math 17 and 36). Hehe. And my highschool Math teacher told me that I’m good, but I’m careless. So imagine.. I can’t really be involved with money nor math. Yet my previous and present jobs both deal with money and finance. And now I’m planning either to get an MBA or Masters in Finance. Labo ko sobra! Hahaha.

9. Commit suicide. - I’m afraid of hell

10. Send chain letters. – but I can tag other people. Actually, I just can’t think of anything for number 10. hahaha.

So the 5 lucky people whom I’ll tag are:
Tani – coz you love answering memes. Hehe
Jase – I can’t think of anything that you would never do
Vina – same reason as Jase and coz you are going in a vacation. Labo! Hahaha!
Ate Mai – I just want to learn what you would never do
Lei – coz I missed you last Monday. hehehe

Blessed

i was supposed to do Duke's tag, but i think it can wait. hehehe.

last night, at the Singles prayer meeting, the Gospel was the Wedding at Cana. for those who are not familiar with the story, this is Jesus first miracle. He attended a wedding and the wine ran out. so, Mary asked Jesus to perform a miracle. and Jesus just turned the water into a wine.

last night, the activity at the prayer meeting was to write in a piece of paper the events in 2006 when the wine ran out, and on the other side to write the events when the water turned into wine. in other words, problems/trials and blessings.

natahimik ako bigla. sobrang i can't think of any when the wine ran out moments ko. all i can think of are blessings. i know i didn't celebrate my bday for 2006, but i still didn't consider it as a problem or what. there came a point when i don't want to serve in the LSS or SE, but still i didn't see a trial in my life. emo moments lang ako nun. hehehe. but for the blessings, a lot. for every problem that i'll try to think of, all i can think of is a blessing.

but the way to describe 2006 for me is a year of semi-fulfillment of my dreams.

first, 2006 had been a year full of travelling. around philippines nga lang. but it was really from northern luzon to mindanao. and mostly are job-related. coz that's what i really like with my work. the travels.

second, i asked God for something. well, it was a demanding request. but still i asked Him for it. and you know what??? He somehow gave it to me. well, still not really given to me. but He made me see that it is possible. that nothing is really impossible if it's according to His will. well, now i still don't know what His will really is.

third, being able to serve in Mark 10. i love kids. and i really want to be a pre-school teacher. but it's not for me. so God just gave me the Mark10 kids. Mark 10 is a ministry for the kids. the Youth ministry is for 13yo to 21yo. Mark 10 is for those whose age is below 12. saya!

fourth, i got to serve Him in many ways. especially by sharing and testifying about His love. and being able to serve in outreach programs. also, with this outreach programs, i got to serve again with the Youth ministry. it's 2007 already, but super blessed tlga ako with the YLSS Lipa.

fifth, my family. i saw how blessed i am with my family. and got to see most of them again at the end of the year.

ang dami pang blessings, but for now ito muna. i know 2007 will be a year of change for me. there will be lots of changes. i just don't know what. but i pray that it is for good and has something to do with what i'm praying for for the longest time. hehehe.

but a change that i know is specific. i'll be fast in taking a bath. 15 minutes maximum. new year's resolution. hahaha! sorry tlga guys last saturday. for the YLSS Lipa Team, thank you so much. you had been more than a blessing last weekend talaga. Jimly! :)

Back from the Visayas Region

Warning: a long post

When my officemates asked me, where had I been and I just went to work yesterday. My answer would always be.. Visayas. I don’t wanna tell the three (naks! Three daw!) places that I’ve visited. Actually, it’s only two. Gusto ko three, bket ba? I still count Leyte. I saw their church, and the wet market. So counted na yun. Hehehe.

Two of my favorite cousins got married last Dec. 29 and Jan. 6. One in Cebu City and the other in Roxas City. These two cousins of mine are the 1st two grandchildren in my father side. And I’m the third. So, napressure ako bigla. Hahaha. Of course, I would like to be next. Hahaha. When people asked me before when I would get married? My answer is Feb. 2007. So it would be December, January and February. But as my cousin told me, it’s not really the month that mattered. They’re just a week apart. So your wedding date should be just a week after. Hmmm.. that might be the reason why my wedding didn’t push thru (duh! As if I have a bf to get married to. Hehe).

With the long vacation, especially with nothing to do except to eat and sleep, I realized a lot of things. Some of these are:

Even i regularly hear mass, I still don't know how to be a commentator. for both weddings, I was the commentator/lector yet there are still eroors. Contrary to the chismis that Randall's wedding is my practice and DP's wedding is my performance, I feel that for both it is still practice. Mali-mali. Hahaha. Sorry talaga dear cousins. I just really don't know how to be a commentator.

It’s a known fact that I would like to live in the province. Weird ako. When every Filipino likes to go out of the country, me, I would like to settle in one of the provinces. After being in Cebu, Leyte (talaga naman. hahaha) and Roxas this past week. I think it’s really Cebu for me. Even if they said that it’s like Manila, Cebu is still different. There’s still something provincial about the place. Hehe. But I still never know… I could end up in a province that has no electricity. (I can’t imagine myself! Hehe)

Even if I’m going to Cebu since time immemorial, I think I still haven’t been to its tourist spots such as the Magellan’s Cross and the Taoist Temple. But for those who have plans of going to Cebu in the future you should try eating at Harbour City (I’m so happy for my 1st day Cebu, I’ve tasted their rice toppings again. Well, not in harbour city but in Ding Qua Qua. But it’s still the same.) For the pasalubong for your family who you’re going to see agad, give them Masi. My all-time favorite. It’s not really a known food for non-Cebuanos. It’s not a usual pasalubong coz nasisira siya agad. But it’s yummy, somewhat like tikoy with nuts inside :)

I am blessed with my family. Eversince, I already know that I am blessed. But the past week made me feel that I’m really blessed to be a Racho. Starting from my titos and titas to my cousins. Wala ako masabi. Bow ako. My father’s siblings are really kind, mabait and selfless. I’ve discovered this way before pa. Even if my father is like that, they still love my dad. Though he would hear regular sermons from Tita Baby, still he is loved and never abandoned by his siblings. Proof that they are not selfish with one another: when other families would fight for their inheritance. The Racho siblings do not fight. I think they would even give their share to one another. They are not millionaires (I just don’t know with Tito Boy, hehe), but they would still not be greedy about their inheritance.

Another discovery... my father’s family are quiet. I didn’t notice that before til my tita’s family (who had been my dad’s neighbor) pointed it out Telling us that when they were kids, they would not know that there’s a person in the other house, until my Lola would sneeze. Hehe. It’s just then that I realized that they are a quiet bunch and the noisy ones are their wives (Tita Mellie, Tita Virgie, Tita Pennie and my mom). Hahaha.

My cousins and I were like reminiscing about how joyful our childhood Christmases were. That they are beyond comparison. Every Christmas and May (Tagbilaran’s fiesta), the whole family would go to Bohol. So Christmases were always fun. This went on til early 90’s coz Lolo Dinoy already died, and it’s like it would be expensive already. Now, our Christmases are like pale coz we miss the Christmas when we were kids. I thought it was only us, yun pala even our other cousins like Kuya Randall feel that way. Kuya Randall, enjoy ka pala nun khet na nagbabasa ka lang? hehehe. Joke lang! Love you! So because of that I proposed something to Kuya Randall: that when we have kids of our own, we would have a reunion every Christmas.

What I’ve realized when I’m already in Manila.. the reminiscing that happened didn’t really have scenarios. We just reminisce how enjoyable and happy it was but we didn’t really say what happened during those times. Labo noh?

All of us grandchildren want to go back to Tamblot (my grandparents’ house) and restore it to its glory (and also show Eric all the rooms. Wawang bata. Di pa raw niya naikot lahat ng kwarto). My dad and his siblings are thinking of selling it, I think. Wala nga silang pakialam sa mga mana nila diba? Hehe. Lyn and Julie, convince Tito Boy not to sell it and just give it to us the grandchildren. Let’s have our reunions there again. Then for the farm, let’s plant and make it a business. But Kay, no marijuana. Adik ka talaga! Hehehe. Lyn and Julie, when you go back here in the Philippines (October ba?), let’s have a grandchildren business meeting, okay? Naks! Hehehe.

We cousins are close even if we don’t see each other often (especially us who resides in Manila). We would just see each other when we were kids twice a year yet the bonding is different. My cousins’ cousins on the mother side said that they’re not close with our cousins because they don’t see them. Ganun din kme. But still, we have bonded. And we guys have matured. Before, 1st days would always be awkward especially since we don’t speak Bisaya. But now, it’s like we have seen each other just yesterday, and even if they speak in Bisaya, my sister and I (I just don’t know with Eric) would somehow understand them.

Whew! What a long post. I still have lots to say but I don’t wanna bore you anymore. Thank you for reading this, if ever you read it nga. Hehehe.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

and Congratulations to Kuya Randall and DP! Welcome Ate Giselle and Kaye to the Racho Family!

i would just like to greet everyone a Merry Christmas! i hope you'll have a great Christmas spent with your family, loved ones or friends that are close to your heart.

and since i don't know when i'll be back.. i would like to thank you for being part of my 2006. thank you for having the patience and time to read my entries. and thank you for reacting even if what i wrote are nonsense. hahaha.

and for 2007, i pray that you will have the desires of your heart. that you would not cry coz of love. and you will have a very blessed year. Happy New Year!! :)

Operation Help-out

With the present state of the Bicol region after the typhoon, my friend decided to organize a relief operation for them. Well, since it is almost a one-man team, it was just a small one. A help targeting a hundred families. I helped my friend by also asking some of my officemates to donate something especially food. Also, I helped with the packing of these goods. So while packing the goods, I felt really overwhelmed. It’s because there were just only 6 of us there and all of us are helping out, not because our company said so, it’s not for our school, office, organization or for anyone but it is because we just wanted to help out. and when we were labeling our box, we don’t know how to label it since we don’t represent anything. We just want to help on our own. Ang galing lang! Those who have helped out won’t be recognized because they have no names. They can’t say thank you to this Organization or Company, because it’s not a group, they are all individuals who have just created a team.

And something that I can’t forget is when we were packing the donated clothes. While sorting out, Ace told us “Remember that these are not poor families.” It’s true. They are not poor families. They live in nice subdivisions, houses in Bicol then in a blink everything is wiped out. And now they don’t have anything. We really don’t know what fate would bring us.

first impression never lasts

Last week, I went out with some of my officemates. And there, I learned that before, when I was still new in our office, they don’t like me. but now they love me. Ha! Hehehe. and to think that it was the time I was still a little quiet in the office and really goody-goody. I think that’s the time I was prim and proper. Of course! Coz I was trying to make a good impression. And still they didn’t like me. but after some months, years, they learned to like me. not only like.. but also to love me.

When I was also an applicant in econsoc, my organization in college, part of the initiation was the human auction. The procedure is that the members would bid for an applicant and whoever bids the highest would have I think 5 hours time of the applicant where he can ask the applicant to clean his house, do his term paper or whatever. In other words, the applicant will be the member’s maid. Anyway, when we were auctioned, i was the lowest priced applicant. Pathetic noh? Hehe. Anyway, I know naman before that the members, except for my blocmates, did not like me. that if ever I’ll give up in the initiation, they wouldn’t mind. But when I became a member, I think they are glad that I’m part of the organization. That they already see me as an asset to the org.

What I just can’t understand is what people see in me first. Some thinks that I am mataray. Others, I don’t know. It’s just majority don’t like me the first time they see me. and I did nothing wrong to them yet they hate my guts. I just really can’t understand it. I’m just quiet in the corner, and still people think that I’m mataray. it’s just that I don’t know what to do to make a good first impression.

How about you? Do you have any problems with first impression? What is generally the first impression of others of you?

Trivia(l)

I know I am intelligent. I realized this when I was entering college. I have never been included in any top 10 of my class, as in never. But still I know I am intelligent. It’s because I have passed all my entrance exams, and some of those in the top 10 did not. This is my blog so I have all the right to boast. Hahaha. And my mom told me (and I believe her) that maybe if I just studied before, I would have been an honor student. Yup, I don’t study. I just watch tv. I just have intelligent genes. Hahaha. Anyway, last Saturday I went to Timezone. And there is this new game there, it’s a trivia game. I haven’t been to timezone for a long time, so for me it’s something new. It’s just embarrassing coz out of the 6 questions, I only got 1. and my competitors all got 3. ang dami pang nanonood! Waaah! Yabang ko kse! Hahaha. I want to play again, but I’m afraid I might got embarrassed again. But I’ll be back. I hope this weekend to regain my pride. I hope my brother would be with me. coz he’s really the intelligent one and I want to see if I can beat him. Hehe.

spoiled daughter

i just realized something. spoiled ako kay God. hehehe. whatever i like, how much impossible it may seem be, if God wills it, He'll give it to me. just like this something that I ask from Him. giving Him conditions pa. He gave it to me. sorry can't divulge details yet. hehehe. basta ang galing lang.

so what is this post all about? nothing. i am just really happy with my realization. thank You Lord. you're really good to me even if i'm a very stubborn daughter. thanks God! :)

a nonsense update...

i'm just writing this coz my officemate keeps on bugging me.. "mag-update ka na. gusto mo lang tlga makita lagi pictures mo." bket ba? blog ko toh ha!

honestly, i have nothing to write. i don't know why. i just celebrated my birthday. wait! did i even celebrate it? just had dinner with my family. wala na ngang celebration, it had been the most tiring one pa. God didn't grant my bday wish. that my phone be fixed on my bday. even for just that day. so i used one of those old phones at home and since most of the numbers are saved on my phone's directory, only the number would appear. good thing i've written it down. so whole day, i am searching my little black book for the name. haay... and the mrt ride in the afternoon. waah! i was really tired!

now, i'm really thankful my phone is fixed again. sa sobrang tuwa, i've told my dad: "love you pa! i still love you pala." sobrang tuwa diba?

thank you to those who greeted me on my birthday. sorry for those people i've asked pa kung sino kayo. and for those who didn't greet me... be thankful i don't have any party this year or else you're not invited. hahaha

face(s) of tin-tin

When people look at my picture they would tell me that don’t change much. They would easily recognize who I am. I guess I still really look the same. Until now, I still look young. Or maybe since then I already look old. Here are my pictures through the years, you be the judge if my I still look the same. I won’t include my baby pictures.

I think I’m 7 years old here. And all I wanted for the Christmas are my two front teeth


My favorite picture. I don’t know why. My first holy communion. I was in grade two, and most probably it was held on October. So I guess I’m just 8 years old that time.


Another no eyes smile. Second year college. I’m 17 or 18.


Even if I have a short hair and wearing braces. Still the same.

And a picture taken just last July, so I’m 25 years old in this picture and after a month was told that I looked like I’m 30. Grrrr!!!


So what can you say? I still look the same, right? It’s just that every year, I just grow and grow. Hehehe. Yup, every year I would always hear: “You’re getting fatter.” Wait! Every year I would also hear them say: “You’re getting prettier.” hahahaha

I noticed something, my smile didn’t change also. Ever since it was already pacute :)

bday sentiments

reasons why i'm not excited for my bday:

1. i don't have any celebration
2. after 5 years, someone's out of my life
3. my phone is busted!

but then great things happened. my sister's bday gift to me is a new phone. yanyan, now i know you're not selfish. hehehe. still can't believe it. wahehehe. i received a phone call from somebody i'm not expecting anymore (please continue praying for me). and this phonecall gave me real hope again. i just hope this happy feeling would not end soon :)

Prison Break Realizations

i didn't notice the weekend passed coz i was just at home watching Prison Break. my new addiction. hehe. when we went to hear mass yesterday, we stopped the dvd at a very exciting part. so bitin talaga. that's why during the mass, i can't really concentrantrate on the mass mind's on the show. then a scene flashed to my mind. the other prisoners are getting mad at Michael Scofield because they're still not out of the prison and they're threatening him that he'll have a worst life if he won't be able to get them out of there coz he gave them hope. i was really irritated with them. on why they would get mad. they should be thankful coz scofield let them join in his secret. then i realized, i was like them. that's how i'm feeling now towards God. everything was going fine with me. hoping for somethings but not expecting. just hoping. then something happened. it's like a dream finally coming true. then zilch! it's gone. not yet really gone pero parang ganun. i'm like, "Lord, what's that then?" suddenly, i again try to listen to the priest's homily. and the first line i've heard.. "Don't lose hope." saya diba?

i'm not losing hope yet. and i guess the Lord is still trying to fix my schedule or is telling me to be patient. coz i really lack patience.

so why am i getting addicted with Prison Break? it has a nice story. suspense talaga. everytime i watch it, i feel like i'm going to die of heart attack. and the number one reason is because of the lead actor (Wentworth Miller). who's really hot! and his character (Michael Scofield) is also smart and kind-hearted. perfect!



a blogger who's as smart and as hot as Michael Scofield is celebrating his birthday this week. Happy birthday Renny! i hope you won't get mad coz i announced your birthday. and the description i made, well that's my gift to you. hahaha. happy birthday renny!

in one of my posts, renny asked me something. what do i want for my birthday? so, what do i want? secret! it's a surprise ;p

my crying session

Whenver I cry, I feel happy. Labo! it’s because I am crying. Labo talaga! Hahaha.

Before, when I was 5 years younger, I don’t cry. Well, I cry but really on very very rare occasions. Even if the people around me are crying their eyes out, I still don’t cry. It’s not that I don’t have any feelings or anything. I just don’t cry. i can feel the pain, I can feel the hurt, I can feel the sadness, I feel like crying but my tears won’t flow. I get teased, I get mad, I could burst crying but I don’t! It’s like something’s stuck in my tear ducts. I really prayed to God that I would learn how to cry. then recently, I learned how to cry. it’s like whatever it was blocking my tear ducts is now gone. Now I cry even if it’s mababaw. Just a cockroach in a cab, and I’ll cry. even if I’m in a public place I cry. in the movies I watch and books that I read, I cry. I don’t complain. Coz I prayed for it. And still I don’t cry that easily. I may feel down, but I won’t cry easily. It’s like I have a dam and I would not cry until it is filled up. So it could be that I don’t cry now even if it’s really worth crying, but later you tease me a little, I would cry. it’s because my dam is already filled up and tears would overflow. So if you see me cry, don’t mind me. just hand me a tissue and I’ll be okay a little later when the dam is empty again. And it also helps being absent from work. Hehehe.

grey's anatomy related

my sister bought a dvd of grey's anatomy, seasons 1 and 2. am watching now. just like her, i got addicted to it. hehe. there's this scene there that really struck me big time. it's about jorge and sona. jorge has a tumer in the middle part of his brain. if they remove it there's a big chance that half of his memory will be lost. but if they don't remove it, his chances of living will lessen. sona (the wife) chose surgery and meredith grey asked her why convincing her big time not to. the wife said that she's selfish. that even if jorge would lose memory of her, it would still be better than she losing him totally.

wala lang. i just totally agree with her. yup, i am also selfish. even if you forget about me, even if you won't care about me anymore, even if you'll have a new travel partner, even if you won't remember me, i don't care. as long as you're still alive and you are okay. then i'll be okay even if it'll hurt.