Whenver I cry, I feel happy. Labo! it’s because I am crying. Labo talaga! Hahaha.
Before, when I was 5 years younger, I don’t cry. Well, I cry but really on very very rare occasions. Even if the people around me are crying their eyes out, I still don’t cry. It’s not that I don’t have any feelings or anything. I just don’t cry. i can feel the pain, I can feel the hurt, I can feel the sadness, I feel like crying but my tears won’t flow. I get teased, I get mad, I could burst crying but I don’t! It’s like something’s stuck in my tear ducts. I really prayed to God that I would learn how to cry. then recently, I learned how to cry. it’s like whatever it was blocking my tear ducts is now gone. Now I cry even if it’s mababaw. Just a cockroach in a cab, and I’ll cry. even if I’m in a public place I cry. in the movies I watch and books that I read, I cry. I don’t complain. Coz I prayed for it. And still I don’t cry that easily. I may feel down, but I won’t cry easily. It’s like I have a dam and I would not cry until it is filled up. So it could be that I don’t cry now even if it’s really worth crying, but later you tease me a little, I would cry. it’s because my dam is already filled up and tears would overflow. So if you see me cry, don’t mind me. just hand me a tissue and I’ll be okay a little later when the dam is empty again. And it also helps being absent from work. Hehehe.