as i've said in my previous entry, i love to think. and the other day, while i was walking home, i thought of what i would do if for example the doctor will tell me that i only have just a month or two to live. of course i will go to confession.. a very serious confession. telling all my sins, and no holds barred. honestly, now when i go to a confession, i still hesitate to tell some. even if i don't know the priest, i still feel embarassed.
then i would hold despedida parties for myself. hehe. this party won't be a crying session but a real party. of course, still potluck. i have to save money for my wake and cremation. hehe. i would text/email/friendster all of my friends, close friends, not-so-close friends, acquaintances, supposedly future friends. everyone who would like to join. this could be a one day event or the party could be categorized on where i met them.
why a party? because i don't want to have pity on me and because i want my friends to remember until the end as the happy person. :D