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Saturday, March 26, 2011

I Want to Understand

before the year 2009 ended, i had a plan for the beginning of 2010. but as i mentioned before, 2009 was a year of rejection for me. that meant my plans for 2010 was not able to push thru. yes, i admit, it saddened me. and my sister was really affected (which touched me). i replaced that plan with something else. a first-time for me, something i enjoyed also. but still it was different. until now, i still can't understand why it happened. i still want to know why. why God chose a different plan.

this year, when i hear that that plan of mine is happening to other people.. of course i'm happy for them but still my heart feels a little hurt. i'm not sure if i'm obvious but one time when someone announced it to me and my sister, my sister asked me afterwards if my heart stopped when i heard about it.

fine, i admit. i am bitter. why won't i be? i wanted it so bad. and it was really disheartening since i did it honestly. yes, another reason why i was so bitter. and it's like it is happening to everyone except me, and i wanted it more than them. it was something i was planning for. i should not really plan. sigh

10 comments:

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

One thing is lacking Tin. As the Bible says, commit your plans to the Lord and your plans will succeed. Sometimes God allows failures in one's life so that the person will seek Him and acknowledge His sovereignty over his life. If you succeed without God's blessings, you might tend to become vain and conceited thinking yourself as all sufficient without God. No need to promise God anything in order to succeed for God can not be bribed. Just humble yourself before Him and allow Him to enter your life by accepting Him as your personal Lord and savior and things will work out for the better. Of course you will still suffer for the consequences of your previous sins but the load will be lighter for He will be there to assist you. Thanks for the post. God bless you always.

Mayet said...

Tin, I also go through this phase every once in a while. It's really frustrating but I always tell myself that in time, everything will work out and everything will be okay. Btw, check my site, my new tambayan. Click the link na lang. :)

aneena said...

Tintin, the answers don't always come immediately but I know that God had his reaasons for that plan to not push through. It's comforting though that despite our disappointments, He always has a way of making us feel that we are blessed, He has plans, and He is in control. Baka hindi pa lang time, Tintin. He probably has something better in mind. :)

bw said...

hmmm. ano kaya yung plans na yan. Pwedeng hulaan ? :) Anyways, they say there is a time for everything under the sun so I say, be patient my friend. They say " the greatest prayer is patience"

Jasmin said...

pareho tayo...pero naisip ko, if ever God will tell you His reason, are you ready to accept it? or will you still insist on what you want?

i'm thinking...maybe it's better to trust Him than ask Him questions :)

tin-tin said...

Mel: of course, i have prayed for it

Mayet: thanks. yes, everything will work out fine. will visit your new tambayan :)

Aneena: i am trusting on that beautiful plan.. nakakahurt lang lalo na kasi di ko pa alam bakit and ano yung plan Niya

BW: ayoko na mag-pray ng patience para di ma-test patience ko. hehe. and i'm sure mali hula mo :)

Jamin: napaisip ako sa questions mo

tina said...

Hi Tin.. its okay to feel disappointed... but don't let it stop you from reaching what you really want or in your case = your plans. :)

love and blessings to you!

Charles Bjørnsen Ravndal said...

Dear it's just normal to feel like that. It's a testament that we're just humans. Anyway, just trust and believe in yourself. As Oprah said own your own power!

Coleman said...

It's May. Time to post! :-)

Ping-i said...

Is this one of those "when one door closes, another opens" kind of thing?