Prison Break Realizations

i didn't notice the weekend passed coz i was just at home watching Prison Break. my new addiction. hehe. when we went to hear mass yesterday, we stopped the dvd at a very exciting part. so bitin talaga. that's why during the mass, i can't really concentrantrate on the mass mind's on the show. then a scene flashed to my mind. the other prisoners are getting mad at Michael Scofield because they're still not out of the prison and they're threatening him that he'll have a worst life if he won't be able to get them out of there coz he gave them hope. i was really irritated with them. on why they would get mad. they should be thankful coz scofield let them join in his secret. then i realized, i was like them. that's how i'm feeling now towards God. everything was going fine with me. hoping for somethings but not expecting. just hoping. then something happened. it's like a dream finally coming true. then zilch! it's gone. not yet really gone pero parang ganun. i'm like, "Lord, what's that then?" suddenly, i again try to listen to the priest's homily. and the first line i've heard.. "Don't lose hope." saya diba?

i'm not losing hope yet. and i guess the Lord is still trying to fix my schedule or is telling me to be patient. coz i really lack patience.

so why am i getting addicted with Prison Break? it has a nice story. suspense talaga. everytime i watch it, i feel like i'm going to die of heart attack. and the number one reason is because of the lead actor (Wentworth Miller). who's really hot! and his character (Michael Scofield) is also smart and kind-hearted. perfect!



a blogger who's as smart and as hot as Michael Scofield is celebrating his birthday this week. Happy birthday Renny! i hope you won't get mad coz i announced your birthday. and the description i made, well that's my gift to you. hahaha. happy birthday renny!

in one of my posts, renny asked me something. what do i want for my birthday? so, what do i want? secret! it's a surprise ;p

my crying session

Whenver I cry, I feel happy. Labo! it’s because I am crying. Labo talaga! Hahaha.

Before, when I was 5 years younger, I don’t cry. Well, I cry but really on very very rare occasions. Even if the people around me are crying their eyes out, I still don’t cry. It’s not that I don’t have any feelings or anything. I just don’t cry. i can feel the pain, I can feel the hurt, I can feel the sadness, I feel like crying but my tears won’t flow. I get teased, I get mad, I could burst crying but I don’t! It’s like something’s stuck in my tear ducts. I really prayed to God that I would learn how to cry. then recently, I learned how to cry. it’s like whatever it was blocking my tear ducts is now gone. Now I cry even if it’s mababaw. Just a cockroach in a cab, and I’ll cry. even if I’m in a public place I cry. in the movies I watch and books that I read, I cry. I don’t complain. Coz I prayed for it. And still I don’t cry that easily. I may feel down, but I won’t cry easily. It’s like I have a dam and I would not cry until it is filled up. So it could be that I don’t cry now even if it’s really worth crying, but later you tease me a little, I would cry. it’s because my dam is already filled up and tears would overflow. So if you see me cry, don’t mind me. just hand me a tissue and I’ll be okay a little later when the dam is empty again. And it also helps being absent from work. Hehehe.

grey's anatomy related

my sister bought a dvd of grey's anatomy, seasons 1 and 2. am watching now. just like her, i got addicted to it. hehe. there's this scene there that really struck me big time. it's about jorge and sona. jorge has a tumer in the middle part of his brain. if they remove it there's a big chance that half of his memory will be lost. but if they don't remove it, his chances of living will lessen. sona (the wife) chose surgery and meredith grey asked her why convincing her big time not to. the wife said that she's selfish. that even if jorge would lose memory of her, it would still be better than she losing him totally.

wala lang. i just totally agree with her. yup, i am also selfish. even if you forget about me, even if you won't care about me anymore, even if you'll have a new travel partner, even if you won't remember me, i don't care. as long as you're still alive and you are okay. then i'll be okay even if it'll hurt.

Short stories and a Tag

I was tageed again. but this time by Bananachoke. but before i start on the tag, i want to share some few things first...

- we ate in Outback,G4 last saturday. i know the staff there are great as i've experirenced before. but last saturday is different. our server, April, before handing us our bill was writing something on it. and i thought it was just nothing. but when i received the bill, there was something written on it: "It was a pleasure serving you both. - April" sweet diba?

- yesterday, i was in the Adoration Chapel, and i don't know tears just flowed and i was crying though i don't know why. yup! siraulo na ako. hahaha. anyway, while in the middle of my drama session, a lady tapped me and said: "Don't cry. Are you crying?" coz i was surprised, i said no. then she said "i thought you're crying" then left. after she left, i cried more. coz i asked God "Lord, even in the church, i'm not allowed to cry anymore?" but maybe the lady is God's angel. assuring me not to cry coz everything will be alright. wait! what's wrong ba? hehehe

that's all. now the tag. i just have to answer the questions...


HOW OFTEN DO YOU BLOG?
now, i blog on a weekly basis. before, i do it whenver an idea pops into mind or i just wanna share something. or if i just feel like it

ONLINE ALIAS:
puhlease; pretty tin

WHAT DO YOU DO MOST OFTEN WHEN YOU ARE BORED?
read and sleep. eat

WHEN BATHING, WHICH DO YOU WASH FIRST?
hands. i want to make sure my hands are clean before cleaning my body.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN AWAKE FOR 48 HOURS STRAIGHT?
slightly yes. for our baby class se37. i was in charge of the membership committe. so puyatan talaga for the directories and seatplan and other stuff.

WHAT COLOR LOOKS BEST ON YOU?
i guess black coz it makes me look smaller

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
ummm... basta it shouldn't taste alcohol.and not beer

DO YOU BELIEVE IN HEAVEN AND HELL AS A REAL PLACE THAT EACH OF US WILL GO TO AFTER DEATH?
yes. that's why i'm afraid to die. coz honestly i don't know if i'll go to heaven.

DO YOU FIND THAT YOU HAVE MORE ONLINE FRIENDS THAN OFFLINE FRIENDS?
No.

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECTS IN SCHOOL?
for college, it's calculus (yup, unbelievable).

ARE YOU A PERFECTIONIST?
me?!?! no way!!

DO YOU SPEND MORE THAN YOU CAN AFFORD?
slightly

IS IT BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST THAT NEVER TO HAVE LOVED BEFORE?
of course! coz the experience and the feeling is incomparable

DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF CREATIVE?
unfortunately, nope

DO YOU GIVE YOURSELF THE CREDIT YOU DESERVE?
yes

DO YOU DONATE TIME OR MONEY TO CHARITIES?
Yep.

HAVE YOU RECENTLY DONE SOMETHING YOURSELF THAT YOU'VE BEEN CRITIZED OTHERS FOR DOING?
i'm sure i have. but can't think of any right now

WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND RIGHT NOW?
will i finish this before 1 pm

Say one nice thing about the person who tagged you and the five people that you are going to tag:

bananachoke is really funny and could be serious at the same time. and really mad with nestle. talagang kailangan ko imention yan. hehehe.

i won't be tagging anyone for this.sorry for being a killjoy. but if you want to answer this, it's okay. no problemo :)

Birthday Gift

I don’t know if you’ve noticed that I’m conceited or in tagalong, makapal ang mukha. I admit I am like that and since it’s my bday next I’ve decided to write my wishlist from you guys. what I’m gonna ask from you is somehow related with you, or what reminds me of you. Some of it could be out of this world and really expensive. But remember that this is all just for fun. If you’ll take it seriously, don’t get mad just give it to me na lang. Hahaha. I hope you’ll not be offended. Remember, this is just for fun.

Okay here goes…

Kuya Marvin and Ate Jopay – a 3G phone. So even if I don’t see you guys personally, I can still see you kahit sa phone lang. if you’ll give me one, kahit di niyo maremember bday ko, okay lang. you’re forgiven. hehehe

Duke - just a postcard. Because from all those I’ve mailed a greeting card that year, you’re the only one who replied the same way. You letter was very much appreciated. Thanks duke!

Ate Mylene – DVDs of the three best movies your company made. You’ll be the one to choose.

Kuya Beautiful – hairclip. Whenever I see your picture or name, I would always remember when I gave you the name kuya beautiful. Hehehe

Sir Tony – my own photo shoot. Hahaha

Julie – a ticket to Singapore coz I miss you and so I can see ice

Toe – a ticket to Cambodia. So I’ll be able to meet you and I’ll be able to visit the country I reported about during second year highschool. Hehe

Rey– jersey of any team

Alternati– a dollhouse. So I can show off how great of an architect you are

Mai– my digiscrap in frame. Vain talaga. Hahaha

Maan– photoshop tutorial

Therine– a computer that you yourself assembled

Toni-ann– scrapbook natin

Lei- a dinner treat. Kwentuhan lang tayo. It’s been a while since we last talked kasi

RalphT– treat in café breton for a week

Renny– Fårikål so I’ll be able to know if you can really cook. Heheh. Just kidding. And so I’ll be able to know how a lamb taste. Or better yet a round trip ticket to Norway so I’ll be able to experience in person its wonders

Neko– a round trip ticket to Hawaii

Vina– manila tour

Jase– perfume or flowers

Yuri– just your presence be felt again. What happened to you?? I miss you!

Jairam– your presence be felt also. Isa ka pang nawawala

Snglguy– a subscription to Time Magazine. Ikaw newsperson ko, diba? Since I don’t want to hold a newspaper (sorry, I don’t like it’s smell), time magazine na lang. hehe

Abaniko– a ticket to Davao. Even if you’re already staying here in manila, I still associate you with davao.

Cruise– mountain climbing

Iskoo/Piolo– camera

Sidney– black and white camera

Duke– sibik! O kahit hindi sibik basta kotse. Gamitin mo credit card mo ha

Mei– an angel figurine. Ito talaga naisip ko sayo.

Tani– a doctor toy set. Coz you’re a doctor. And I love those toys when I was a kid

Richard– dictionary. so I’ll be grammatically correct in my writings and also correct spelling

BW– Egyptian artifacts. Just make sure it’s not a mummy ha. And chicken inasal if you go home to bacolod

Jef– a painting made by you

Melai– cake. Ewan. Siguro kasi naalala ko nung maraming tira nung nagparty kayo dati. Alam ko kanin ata yung natira. Eh gusto ko cake. hehe

JV–DVD of Rent

Annalynn– roundtrip ticket to the US. So I can visit you guys. hehehe

Julie– doggie stuff toy

Bananas– nestle products. Joke!!!! :)

Lazarus– book on quotable quotes

Ann– shawarma. hehehe

Ghee– yakisoba. Coz everytime I visit your blog I see food. And this is the Japanese food that first came to my mind. Pero ayoko ng yakisoba. Except if it’s the instant noodles. Hehehe

Jon and Jeff– clothes from people are people. Wala lang, naremember ko lang ang F. hehehe

Manang– my own tarpaulin also. Nainggit. Hahaha

Jhed– a copy of your best dvd collection. Ayoko ng pirated ha

Bryan– a ticket to South Korea?

Neil– pringles!!!

Rex– Grey’s Anatomy DVD. Hehehe

Charles– food that you cooked

Ainah – pink bag. hehehe

Plong – blackberry. hehe

Emil – cellphone. Joke lang emil!

Neneng– dutch dictionary

Lalaine– load. Hehehe

Carey– one of your products. Ano ba business nyo?

Any violent reactions? For those I’ve failed to mention here, it doesn’t mean you’re not to give me a gift anymore. Hehehe. I’m sorry. I just can’t think of anything. But I have a question, if you’re really to give me a gift (it can be something impossible or not), what would you like to give me?

finally!!!

we already have electricity in our house! yehey! since thursday morning it's only today (wednesday) at 5am that we got to have electricity. and from friday night to monday ngiht, i didn't sleep in our house. and it made me remember my college days when i would just go home in my dorm to take a bath. hahaha.

though we already have electricity, we still do not have any phone line. so i'm in an internet shop now. and you know what? their blogger.com is like in chinese! bilib ako! i've already memorized this site coz i know what to click even if it is in chinese.

just want to leave a message coz i missed you guys!