old stuff

as i was searching thru my things for old photos of the BLD Youth for gwadz's despedida, i saw a lot of stuff that are both old and memorable. i saw the letters i received from my friends for the SE and also letters way back from college (those from highschool are kept in the different area of our house. hehe). grad pics from gradeschool to college friends. duke! even your debut invitation was there. hehe. and what i can't believe is i still have my ronald mcdonald's fun fun fun club id. hehehe. the card that made me eat cheeseburger when i was a kid eventhough i like to order fried chicken, just to get a free gift. hahaha.

i didn't find what i'm looking for. but i saw how blessed i am with friends and how blessed my life is :)

simple pleasures in life..

been tagged by Duke and this cheered me up nga. thanks duke! :)

It’s a great thing to be able to count your blessings, even the simplest ones.
Instructions: Name ten (10) of life’s simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten (10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

1. being in the Adoration Chapel - just staying there gives me a feeling of peacefulness. if i don't feel good, i just go there.
2. walking - as i have previously mentioned in my posts before. i love to walk. it gives me time to think and realize things.
3. reading books - i love to read.
4. receiving sms from friends - even if it's a forwarded message
5. eating crepes - i don't know but since last year this had been my favorite and my weakness!
6. going to a new place/trying our new restaurants
7. singing!
8. when my crush texts/calls or just even smiles at me :)
9. watching the sunset
10. reading comments in my blog. hahaha

i'll only tag 7. and the lucky ones are (drumrolls please. hehe):
iyna and plong - coz i miss you guys
toe - belated happy bday and new home!
duke - ang nagpapamiss
mei - belated bday girl
elaine - so, you'll also feel good

The Word

"Lord, I am not worthy to receive You, but only say the Word and I shall be healed."

after reciting these words at yesterday's mass, i asked: "Lord, what is the Word? have You told me and i just didn't hear it? have i missed it? what is the Word, Lord?"

just a question...

appreciated

i wasn't feeling good the whole day today. not really in the mood to work. didn;t finish my lunch. and was somewhat quiet in the office. then after office, a sis in lb called me up to see if i am okay coz they are worried for i don't answer their text messages, calls and even emails.

then later on, i've texted selected friends from the soc that i am really thankful for them, that i saw how blessed i am with their friendship. that even if i don;t make my presence felt (just for a month), they still give a damn about me. then most of them gave the same reply. sent almost the same message. finally, i've made my presence felt. that they are worried about me already. that they miss me. and whatever is happening, they are just there.

of course i cried. that moment i've felt loved. i realized that there are still someone who worries about me, who misses me. in other words, who appreciates me.

as i've told iyna in my comment.. not talking to you guys is like punishing myself. actually, it really is a punishment. then why in the first place why did i do it? i don't know. i just didn't realize that my silence would mean a thing to you. love you guys. thank you :)

super trendy

most of my officemates call me super. it's not because i have super powers but i usually use the word super in my sentences. for example: super traffic, super wait lang.

then yesterday morning, i heard in a radio commercial that the word "super" is popular now that you should use it in every sentence/phrase. just like what i usually do. when i heard that, i don't want to use the word super anymore.

i have this trait that when something i like becomes a fad, i'm not keen about it anymore. i liked badminton. that was my favorite sport. i even have a racket. but when it became popular in our country, i don't want to play it anymore. sorry Kuya Marvin and Abaniko.

call me mayabang. i don't care. hehe. i guess i would just now use totally. ;p

template disaster

waaah! i decided to change my template to give my blog a new look. what i didn't know is that when i change the template, all my links will be erased. even the tagboard. even if the message of joey was deleted, i am not happy. it's like i am going to do everything from scratch. i am trying to recall all the links that i have. so guys, if ever you're not included in the list at the side, just inform me okay?

Iloilo River

just came back from iloilo. and for the three nights that we were there, our ilonggo officemates always brought us to restaurants with the iloilo river in the background. it was like the pasig river of manila. but only a cleaner version. unlike here in manila, they put into good use the river. they placed restaurants, bars, hotels beside it, to have it as part of the ambience. thus, a need to maintain the cleanliness of the river. i just feel sad for the fate of the condition of the pasig river now. especially after hearing from the old ones how beautiful the river was before.

*photo from http://www.skyscrapercity.com/

Why?

why is it I always push away those who really care about me. first, it was ace, now econsoc.

why do i not push away those who really don't give a damn about me?

why do i always reach for those who are far from me? and why would i not just appreciate those around me?

Grrrrr!

last night, i noticed that there's a new message in my tagboard and it really made my blood boiled. i shouldn't be affected, but i am. here's the message:

joey: Im really worried because every time i see your picture, i dont see it pretty or beautifull.One thing is sure, you're healhty in plain language you're mataba.

before that, there's a message from the same person (i presume)..

joey: Why are you so fat?ay mali healthy pala.You're not pretty naman but you keep on calling yourself pretty.

to joey, whoever you are. and i think i know you personally. thanks for worrying about me. i'm touched. but no need to worry about me because i don't really worry about it. i'm trying to enjoy my life, okay? and you're not even my boyfriend. and don't tell me that you won't have a gf as fat/healthy as me, because i won't have a bf also who's not a gentleman. and don't tell me, i would never have a bf with my size. well, to tell you the truth, having a bf is the least of my priorities. you may hear me always saying that i want to have a bf, believe me. i'm just saying that to silence you guys out. i have more important priorities in my life now that i want to accomplish than having a boyfriend.

and for the record, i don't call myself pretty because i see myself as the prettiest girl, but i call myself pretty because i want to. if i want to be called a princess, i can easily do that.

with this entry, i wanna apologize to sam and gani who i texted and emailed regarding this. sorry if i somehow assumed that it's you guys. because you're the only ones who always use different names in my tagboard. promise! i believe now that you're not joey. sorry...

Father's Day Special naman (hehe)

last night, while i was walking home from church i passed by a father teaching her daughter how to drive. it brought back memories when i was 17 and my dad taught me how to drive. we would go up to the mountains of binangonan so there'll be no cars. that's why i perfected driving sa mga hanging. and remembered the time when we nearly drove off a cliff. hehe. as in my dad was really panicky. and the first time i drove in edsa, my dad always telling me to slow down. (sorry, i'm used to race cars in arcades. hehe).

now, my sister nags my papa to enroll her to driving schools. while with me, he was the one who volunteered to teach me and even got me my student's license.

aaah... the closeness i had with my father.. is all part of the past now.. just like my knowledge in driving...

Mother's Day Special

i realized just recently how blessed i am with my mom. how much she loves her children and a really understanding mom. she has been through a lot these past years. and everything happening to her continuously. though my sister and i had done things she would not be proud of, she still accepts us. she did not disown us despite of all these. though we have not shown respect to her, she still loved us her children. promise! kawawa ang nanay namin sa amin. but this made me look up to her. how many moms would you find who will try to understand their children? don't tell me all the moms would do that coz that's hypocrisy. i don't think they'll be able to stand everything that has happened to my mom. and i'm grateful that after 20 years, i finally appreciated my mom and seen her worth. love you ma!

Manila, Manila

was talking to my friend from the province who had never been to Manila. i told him, that if ever he'll visit Manila, i'll show him to places. then it occurred to me, where will i bring him. though i've been living in Manila, all my life. i don't know where to take him. honestly, what came to my mind was Ayala Center. because that's where i usuall am and it has everything, from malls to a museum. but i don't think i can consider it a tourist spot. actually, when i told him about showing the places of Manila, i was actually thinking of Baguio, , Tagaytay, Corregidor. hahaha. (fyi, these places are not in Manila, they are in nearby provinces). it's just later on that i realized, Manila also has some Filipino tourist spots on its own. Rizal Park, Intramuros, Museong Pambata, Quiapo, Divisoria, Araneta Center, and UP Diliman, to name a few.

wow! besides of beautiful faces (ahem!), manila can boast a lot of sites that is still unique and has a rich history.

Missing Myself

last night, i've got to talk to my ex again. my ex told me: "sobrang miss na miss kita. namimiss ko yung tin-tin dati (i really miss you. i miss the tin-tin before)." then i cried. it's not because i miss my ex, but it's because i also miss myself. yup, i really miss myself. i don't know what's happening to me. i am in a silent mode right now. i don't make my presence felt by my friends. i don't know, i just want to be alone for a while.

a lot has been asking about me. where am i, what's happening to me? honestly, i also wanna know. i feel so lost. quarter-life crisis? i don't know. i am just more prayerful now, so i'll not lose hope and would not just give up on life itself.